Hailey's POV
Theodore decided to drive me to the airport, fly with me and drop me off at school. He flew us private and I'm not sure if he was showing off or trying to impress me but I was too troubled to try think of how I felt about being in a private plane with some lady serving me endless cups of ice cream.
My thoughts were consumed by one boy.
Jaxon.
He left on the day of the funeral without saying goodbye. He did not even tell anyone he was leaving, he just left. Leaving behind all of his clothes behind and having me travel back with all of it. I don't know why I didn't have his number in my phone and why he didn't think to reach out and apologize for leaving me on such a hard day.
When it was time for Theo to leave, he left me with a credit card, a stack of cash and an address to some house just close by in case I need him.
Did I need the money? No. Did I fight him on it? No.
He wants to find a way to my heart, maybe buying me is his way and if I was in a better state of mind then I'd tell him that this was not the way to do it but I'm not in my right mind.
I won't pretend for his benefit that I am. I won't even try force a smile on my face because I'm hurting, I have to digest so much and also deal with the pain of losing the only parents I knew.
Many would say, well you have one more father! Why not use the opportunity given to you to build a relationship with him?
I just can't.
Not right now. Not when I must first deal with the fact that my mother lied to me, my mother, who can't even explain the letter and the big secret she kept from me all these years. Every damn day she would wake me up and shower me with love, cook me breakfast. Make memories and watch me cry for a man that was not my father. Yes, she pleaded with me to see him for who he was and how he treated me but maybe if I had known that he wasn't really my dad, maybe I would've been more open to seeing his true self.
I wouldn't fight for that non existent relationship.
"Lights out!" The matron calls out. I hear feet running around as the girls run to their rooms to sleep. A beep goes off on my phone, notifying me of a post on chatpax and I sit up to see what was news today.
Upon opening my phone, I didn't realize I'd have to hear the pieces of my heart break to nothing. I felt a strange pain hit me and then nothing.
Numbness.
I felt nothing as I saw a picture of Jaxon with Azuri, the caption saying that she would be back at school with her long term boyfriend. Did I read the comments? Naturally.
One after the other they would talk about me. About how I feel seeing this picture or just when I'm back and still mourning the death of my parent, I have to deal with being the girl Jaxon used. Yes, I'm like the others, the other girls that Jaxon apparently toyed around with and when he's done, he runs back to Azuri, who will always welcome him back with open arms.
I was numb to the laughing emojis or heartbreak emojis they tagged me on. I honestly wanted to feel something but I couldn't. Everything they said I was feeling, betrayal or used I didn't feel. That I should be feeling some added grief from seeing this picture and the fact that everyone knows that Jaxon traveled with me to my fathers funeral but once it was all over, he ran to the arms of the one he truly loves.
I put my phone back on my nightstand and force myself to sleep. Hopefully tomorrow, I'm this numb from all that's to come from this post.
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The next day...
I wake up way before my alarm, switching off my phone and covering myself with my bed covers. Yes, everything came tumbling down on me the minute I woke up and I felt like something heavy was sitting on my chest.
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