One More Chance novel Chapter 103

~~~You say it's over, I say we've just begun. 'Cause, it ain't forever until our lives are done. I know I did some things that I never should I'd undo them if I could. I'd turn my life around for you, anything you'd ask me to. I won't deny it, I know that I've done wrong, but you have to admit it this love is just too strong to just fade away into the night without putting up a fight. We can make it all alright if we can give it one more try~~~

-Piolo Pascual-

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"Don't touch me! Don' fucking touch me!" I whispered-yelled. I tried as much as I can to prevent the tears from falling and I thank God for not letting those tears flow.

"Sam, listen to me---"

I didn't let him finish his statement as I slapped him again. Cherry was nowhere to be found, maybe she had already left the coffee shop.

Shaking my head, I gave him a death glare before heading back towards the office. I closed the door but not even a second when Luke swung it open.

"What are you doing here? Get out!" I screamed, glaring at him as I pointed to the door behind him, but he didn't listen, instead, he walked over to where I stood.

"Sam, let me explain."

"Explain? Well, fuck your explanation because I don't have time to listen to it! You already had four years but you never did, you never tried to explain!"

"Sam, please---"

"Fine! I'll give you a minute to finish your explanation as to why you didn't file the divorce papers!"

"Sam---"

"You don't want it? Well, then, get out!"

"No! I'll take it. I didn't file them because I love you and I realized I couldn't let you go easily---"

"Jesus Christ! Can you stop mentioning the word I love you? It makes me cringe, forgodsake!"

"But that's the truth. I love you and I know I couldn't easily take the pain away and forgive me but---"

"Tss! What did you say?" I asked, couldn't help but narrow my eyes on him. "Take the pain away? And what made you think that I'm still in pain? Whoa! Are you still thinking I'm still in love with you, that I'm still head-over-heels with you and that I haven't moved on yet from you?"

Why do I feel that at that certain moment, I should have asked those questions myself more than him?

"Well, for your information, I've already moved on from you and honestly, I've sometimes forgotten that once in my life, I met you!"

"Sam..." He was shocked to hear what I said. Shock and hurt immediately registered in both his eyes.

"Yeah, that's the truth! If I didn't have Cali with me, maybe I'd already forgotten a long time ago that someone like you existed."

It took him a few seconds before finally found his tongue back.

"Well, I couldn't blame you for that. I'm sorry. I didn't file the divorce papers because I want you back---"

He was interrupted when I suddenly laughed in front of him. And hearing those words made me remember what happened earlier this morning.

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FLASHBACK...

"I love you."

My whole body automatically turned to him not just in shock, but in anger that instantly filled my heart.

"Can you come up with a nicer joke next time?" I asked, forming my fists.

"I'm not joking. I love you, Sam. I love you and I'm sorry for not realizing it before."

Tears started forming around my eyes as I laughed at him. The memories of the past suddenly flashed back in my head including those words... those painful words he told me. Those times when I was helplessly begging for him to love me and those times when he shouted at me that he will never feel the same for me... he will never love me.

"What did you just say? You love me?" I didn't wait for his answer as I laughed again, bitterly. "Uhuh! You love me! Really? Since when did you realize you love me? Since I left you or since you found out that I've already moved on from you and that I now have David?"

"Sam---" he started walking closer to me but I stopped him using my hand.

"No! Don't come near me and don't you dare touch me!" And when he stopped walking, I started asking again. "I can't believe you're now telling me you love me! Huh! So what happened to the determination you had four years ago? Remember, you told me you will never love me? You told me to wake up on my slumber because even in my wildest dream, you will never learn to love me!" Maybe I said each word a little more calmly, but I was almost exploding inside.

All the painful memories of the past, as well as the feeling, rushed back to me all of a sudden and that made my tears roll down my face. I could no longer hold them back.

"Samantha, I'm sorry---"

"No, you're not!" I wiped away the first set of tears before continuing. "What was I to you before? You never once treated me as your wife nor as a woman. You never once saw my worth and yet you insulted my whole being. I always asked myself what I did to deserve your punishment? Yes, I loved you and because of that stupid feeling I had for you, I made the biggest mistake which ended up having Cali in my life."

I paused just to breathe but he has already spoken.

"I know. I know I made a lot of mistakes and hurt you not just once but most of the time when you were with me and I've been the most stupid man for doing those things. I regret every single day that I wasted not telling you how sorry I am and for not being a good husband to you. Honestly, I started having the same feelings for you when you were in high school and was about to break my relationship with Cheery, but when you did what you did at the night bar, it suddenly crashed. I mean, it should be me and not you doing those crazy things. I have a lot of dreams but it all changed when I know you got pregnant. I don't know what to do, your father forced me to marry you and if I didn't agree, he would have taken our company. I'm the only child, so I had no choice but to listen to them and my parents and marry you."