One More Chance novel Chapter 104

~~~Tell me, what must I do to make you wanna stay and take the hurt away and leave it all to yesterday? What can I say to make you change your mind? To have the chance to turn the hands of time back to the days when you were mine. Just give me ONE MORE CHANCE for one last time, just one more kiss to last a lifetime, ONE MORE CHANCE for one last time...~~~

-Piolo Jose Pascual-

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Those words made me burst into tears. So after all, after how many years, everything happened because of me. It was all my fault.

"Yes, let's say they forced you to marry me but don't you know that at that moment I also felt scared of being tied to you? I also had no choice because it was my fault. I know I hurt you because of what I did. And yes, I also know I hurt your ego, but that's not enough reason for you to treat me like shit and for you to bring different woman every other night just to punish me and show me how worthless I was!"

He suddenly lowered his head and to my biggest surprise, tears began to flow from his eyes when he looked at me again. But that just added to the pain that's already carved in my chest.

"I'm sorry."

"Every day, I questioned my worth, my existence but still couldn't help hoping that one day, you will see me and learn to love me, but it never happened."

"I love you. I loved you, I was just stupid not to realize it right away."

"No." I shook my head as tears continued to flow down my face. "No, you never loved me because, for you, I was the most stupid, most demanding woman you ever met. And I remembered once you told me how you tried to be the husband I wanted you to be, but you can't. You can provide for the family's needs, financial and material things, but not the love and attention I was asking you to give me. And then now, after more than four years, you're telling me that you love me and that you loved me? Why?"

"Sam..."

"Why didn't you realize it before? I've moved on already, Luke! I now have David and we're happy! Why are you telling me your feelings when you know we already have different lives?

"Because I want you back. I want my family back."

"No!" I screamed, shaking my head. "Our story has already ended and I've already closed the book a long time ago where all the pain and suffering I have felt and experienced was written! The damage has been done and time has already passed. We couldn't do anything about it anymore. We couldn't bring back the past! It's over Luke!"

"No! Sam, please, just give me another chance." he tried to hold my hand, but I immediately swatted it away.

The look I gave him when I heard the word chance almost made my heart explode due to anger.

"Chance? Give you another chance?" I asked, couldn't help hitting his chest with my palm. "What the fuck are you asking me?"

"I hurt you. I shouldn't have done those things and shouldn't have said those words. I know I couldn't change them anymore no matter how I wish, but if you give me another chance I'll do everything this time to make things right or if not, I'll do my best to show you how sorry I am and I love you---"

But he was stopped when I laughed at him sarcastically. And then I stared at him. Behind those tears streaming down my face, silent words were echoing my head... wishing I had heard those words a long time ago, but I didn't. And those tears that I see in his eyes, I wish I had seen them when I hadn't yet decided to move on.

"You'll do everything to make things right? Why? Do you think you can still change them or will it make even a little change for what has happened?" When I didn't hear any words from him, I continued. "We've already talked about this matter and I told you I love David."

He didn't say anything, he just closed his eyes tightly and that's when I took steps towards the bedroom. But before I could even reach the door, I stopped and immediately turned around as I realized one thing.

"Is this the reason you brought me here, to talk about the past and say these nonsense things to me?"

"Sam, I - I ..."

"Tss!" I huffed, shaking my head. "So I was right!"

"Yes, but you also have to sign the documents that's why---"

"You could have sent me those documents either to the mansion or to the coffee shop!"

"I just wanted to talk to you."

And I laughed bitterly yet sarcastically. What a nice move!

Shaking my head, I continued my steps towards the bedroom and left him calling my name.

END OF FLASHBACK...

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"How dare you asked me for another chance when you're still with her? When in this past four years you're still sleeping with her?"

"No! You misunderstood the things between me and Cheery that's why I wanted to explain it to you."