One More Chance novel Chapter 65

~~~All the raindrops in the sky tonight can't compare with all the pain and tears I've cried. All the make-believe locked in this picture frame is gonna stay behind. I never had the strength to pack my bags and leave before, but now I'm done lying to myself when it's clear that you're not the one~~~

-Carrie Underwood-

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I woke up the next morning with dizziness and a slight headache, but I tried to get up as I still have to ask Attorney Raymundo if when can I get the copy of the divorce papers. I need to sign it as early as possible and give it to Luke before the stupidity comes over to me and disrupts what I had planned... just like what almost happened last night.

I easily melted at his touch and gave in with his kisses and that shouldn't have happened if I had listened to my mom and Jack the first time they told me to file a divorce petition.

The love I have for him can't be washed and drained of alcohol in just one night. I know it will take some time to forget what happened, but I'm willing to take one step at a time.

*Sam, if you will be brave enough to say goodbye, life will reward you with a new 'hello'*

I smiled remembering what Paul told me before he sent me home last night. He said he just read those lines in one of his favourite books.

I sighed.

I was about to go to the bathroom when my phone vibrated on top of my bedside table. I checked who the message was coming from and my breath hitched when I saw it came from our Lawyer.

**Ms Soriano, I just want to inform you that I'll be sending you the documents this morning. I asked my secretary to bring it to your house and she's on her way now. Have a good day.**

A weak smile curled up against my lips. 'Have a good day'. Yeah, I wish this would be a good day, smooth and flawless so I could start my plans and finally moved on from this misery.

**Thanks, Mr Raymundo.** I replied.

After placing the phone back on the mini table, I went to the bathroom to do my morning routine. I spent almost 30 minutes in the shower room also thinking of the things I have to say to Luke. The things I have to say now before I regret one day for not telling him.

I chose to wear a totally opposite type of clothing to what I used to wear... red spaghetti straps that show off a bit of my cleavage and white cotton short-shorts which show my white creamy legs. Yes, I am a wife and a mother but for the past four years, I have forgotten about myself. I forgot that I was also a woman, and that being a woman I also need to take care of myself. I gave up everything when I married him. I lost my confidence when he showed me I have no right to love and to be love. I have been lost and completely forgotten myself since day one that I realized how much I love him.

Wearing the confidence and courage I had gathered in the bathroom, I exited my room and went downstairs. I saw Elaine in the living room and greeted her, but she only gave me a sad smile as a response. She and Rory already knew about my decision and even though they understand it, they said they couldn't help but to feel sad with the outcome of our four years of marriage.

I told them about it yesterday and asked them to help me pack some of my things including those of Cali's as I will be the one to pack my personal things.

"If you're looking for your soon-to-be ex-husband, he's in the kitchen."

"He's in the kitchen, so you mean to say he didn't go to work?" I asked with a frown.

"Haist..." She sighed. "Honestly, I didn't ask him, Sam, I just cooked breakfast for him this morning. I didn't even bother to ask him why he wasn't wearing his suit or why he woke up late this morning."

"Ahh... yeah, maybe he's not going to the office today." I smiled, nodding. I don't want to know why he woke up late or if he really doesn't want to go to work.

I headed to the kitchen after talking to Elaine and there I found Luke, 'my soon to be ex-husband' sitting in his favorite chair which was at the end of the table, staring blankly at the pancakes on his plates.

I walked past him and went straight to the counter to get a coffee from the coffee maker. I felt his stares on my back as I prepared my breakfast and caught him in the act when I turned around. But instead of removing his eyes away from me, he kept looking at me until I pulled the chair next to him.

It has been a long time since we both seated and had breakfast together, so I think after four months, this is the first and last time that we are going to eat breakfast at the same time.

"Samantha---" he started to talk but I cut him off.

"If you're going to ask where Cali is, mom picked her up yesterday and she will stay there while we're sorting things out between us." I was slicing the pancake on my plate while I was speaking, so by the time I finished, I shoved the first slice and moaned loudly as I closed my eyes.

I don't care if he's watching me at that moment because from that morning on, I'll be the Sam... the Sam he didn't give the chance to prove herself in front of him, the woman he never loved.

"You didn't tell me your mom picked her up and that she will stay there."

"It's because you didn't ask me and maybe I don't need to tell you everything I do, do I?" I replied, not looking at him but at my plate.

"But she's my daughter too!"

"Hmm... these pancakes are good."