One More Chance novel Chapter 91

~~~Tonight you're mine completely. You give your love so sweetly. Tonight the light of love is in your eyes, but will you love me tomorrow? Tonight with words unspoken, you say I'm the only one. But will my heart be broken when the night meets the morning sun? I'd like to know that your love is love I can be sure of. So tell me and I won't ask again, will you still love me tomorrow?~~~

-Juris Fernandez-

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The following day, David came to visit me and Cali and he stayed in the house for the whole day. He went to play with Cali, helped me cook for lunch and even washed dishes. We watched Cali's favorite cartoon series and after lunch, David and I watched a new romantic movie on Netflix.

But throughout the day, I noticed there was always a certain sadness in his eyes and since I thought that maybe it was because he's going back to New York by the following day, so I pretended I didn't notice it at all and did my best to make him smile.

When the evening came and Cali was already asleep in her room, we sat on the terrace with both coffee in our hands. We watched how the stars twinkle above the sky with the silence that stretched between us.

A few moments later, I glanced at him and I didn't miss the sad smile that curled against his lips before letting out a deep, long sigh.

"Are you okay?" I couldn't help but ask when I heard him sigh again.

He glanced at me and nodded. "Of course, why do you ask?"

"Because since you came this morning you seemed quiet and in deep thought."

"It's nothing, babe. Uhm... I was just thinking about what would happen in the future."

"What do you mean?" I asked him frowning. I even turned my whole body to face him.

"What I mean is that what is gonna happen to us in the future." He replied with a shrug, but still not looking at me but the glistening sight above us. "Do you think we'll still be together ten years from now?"

"Babe..." The only word that formed in my head as his question totally surprised me and made me stuck in my seat.

And that's only when he looked at me, well, staring is the right word.

"I love you, Sam, you know that, right?"

"Y-Yeah, it's the second time you ask me that question and my answer is still the same until now."

"I know and to be honest, I feel afraid. Terrified is the exact word if I will describe how I feel right now."

"But why? What are you afraid of?"

"I'm afraid of how I feel for you. I have never loved someone in the past the way that I loved you. I love you so much that it scares me, Sam. It scares me when I think that one day, you're gonna leave me and I have to let you go."

"Hey..." I immediately got up and walked closer to him. "Babe, what are you talking about? I'm not gonna leave you and I'm not going anywhere."

But at that moment, even I, myself wouldn't want to believe with what I said. I realized that we felt the same, we're both afraid. It's just that we have different reasons why we feel that way. I'm afraid and guilty and because of that, tears started flowing down my face. David is a good man and I'll be a fool if I let someone like him go easily.

"Shhh... why do you always cry every time I tell you that I love you? Does my love for you makes you cry?" He wiped my tears before pulling me into a hug, but I immediately freed myself when I heard his question.

"No, silly! That's not the reason why I cry. I'm just so thankful and overwhelmed by the love you have for me."

"Haist! You don't have to cry because of it. How many times do I have to tell you that I hate seeing you cry? And by the way, I just have a favor to ask before I go back to New York."

I straightened my seat and waited for his next words.

"I want you to stay here when I go to the airport tomorrow."

"What do you mean you want me to stay here?"

"I don't want you to come with me to the airport tomorrow. I want to go alone."

"But why?"

"Because it's hard for me to leave when I see you there before my flight."

I sighed but then I smiled and nodded at him.

"Alright, but promise me you'll call me when you're already in New York!"

"Of course!" He chuckled and I yelped when he suddenly lifted me by my waist and made me sit on his lap. He wrapped his hands around my waist and put his head on my shoulder.

And silence embraced us both a few minutes later.

"I love you." He said breaking the deafening silence.

I gulped and took a deep breath before facing him and looking him directly in the eyes.

"I love you too." I smiled.

Even though he returned me that smile, his eyes didn't show the same emotion. At that same moment, I realized the reason why I'm afraid. I'm afraid that one day I might hurt him.

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And that's what I did the next morning. We didn't even visit him in Jack's old apartment. I just got a message from him that he's already in the airplane at 8:00 and they'll be leaving in a few minutes.