One Sided Love novel Chapter 30

Kate 

Rachel was with me and she was holding my daughter ... 

She said ' what a precious little thing she is.... she is the most beautiful baby girl I have seen ... oh look at her rosy cheeks..''

I looked lovingly to her n said ' Rachel thank you so much for being there for me... I will never forget that..'

Rachel ' kate don't you dare to say thank you .. im your friend n that's what friends do '

I very blessed to have Rachel as a friend ... my little girl started to cry .... its her feeding time... kate give her to me

I unbuttoned my front button n my hungry little princess attack on it..

Rachel laughed n said '' opps some body is very hungry... what you gonna name her'

The moment I know im having a girl... many name came into my mind but the name I want to give her my daughter was after emily 

I said ' Aria emily Robbins'

Rachel looked sympathetically to me n said ...' kate its a very beautiful name.... naming your daughter after Emily is very great step even after knowing she was your husband first wife'

I replied ' Emily was my friend my sister....so my daughter should be named after her... it was the name that came into my mind,all the time'

She looked ' you r very kind n beautiful person inside n out... Alex is lucky to have you'

By Alex name I flinched... he still doesn't see her... but what I was expecting he was already so loud n clear that he has nothing to do with Aria... I wish god changed his heart towards my daughter

Alex 

Kate was sitting in the car n was holding the baby in sleeping bag .... I still doesn't see her face... although I can see how this little thing is restless n active ... she constantly shaking her legs n hands... her little fist is inside her mouth... n every then now she cry n then relax .. then cry then relax... Kate was already so tired n she keeps looking at me that I will mind n get angry with all this baby cry... n I feel shit to make her so uncomfortable... kate never said again to see the baby... may be it is good because im already in guilt I cannot take it anymore... 

To make it less awkward I said to kate ' hmm.. mom n dad are coming tonight... they feel bad they were not with you and I called your father ... he dont have any idea that you called...I told him that Mona picked the phone... anyway He said he is coming directly to home since you are discharged... so he may come'

Kate softly replied ' oh ok..'

Finally I reached home ... when I was opening the door kate said with embarrassed face ' Alex ....actually I don't know in which way I left the house... it may not be that clean ... im ..

I stopped her ' kate plz ... I will give damn to whole house ... all that matters is you are alright ... I already feel like shit I wasn't with you when you needed me the most... (I picked her face ) its me who should say sorry not you'

She smiled n said ok ... when I opened the door n let kate enter first ... I realized the house look so cold like nothing happened in the last 24 hours... I remember when emma was borned whole house was covered with flowers balloons n welcome sign... I remember kate help me to do all the decorations ... everyone try to make Emily feel like a queen on that day.... n now im standing in house where their is no celebration sign n no one to hug kate ..... when I looked towards kate ... I saw her face with sad expression like she was also thinking the same... Im no good like everyone I let her down from the very first day I met her..... 

she looked n said ' Alex im going to feed her ... then take a shower... I will make the lunch n dinner afterward'

I replied ' kate you will just relax n rest ... I will take care of everything ... now go emma will be in any time here'

By emma name she give me a bright smile ... she said ' I missed emma so much ...I can't wait to hold her'

With that the baby start crying ... kate start cooing her n said she will go to the nursery first...

I called the Mexican restaurant to order lunch ... n decided to take a bath too.

  After an hour I saw  Kate was already dressed in loose sundress n freshly bath ... she was in the kitchen taking orange juice from the fridge..... I went to her n hold her from behind... she flinched a little but then she relax knowing it's me... she said ' Alex you scared me'

I was kissing her neck ' who you thought it can be... you looked so edible n fucking beautiful ... all I want to do to take you to the room but damn I have to wait for 6 weeks ...