SAGE novel Chapter 42

Sage Miller

Lately I've been missing a lot of firsts and fuck if that didn't piss me off.

I feel like such a fucking looser.

First it was the back to school party now this, the first game of the season. But that wasn't the only game I was gonna miss after all.

There's still one more game I won't play.

I sat on the bleachers and watched the team practice. Some looser was filling in my spot. Doing what I should be fucking doing.

He's also fucking horrible.

It's been a week of hell. A week since I got a damn fucking stupid punishment.

Of course I made sure to damage that fucker Nathan's arm, more than he said I did. If I wasn't gonna play so neither would he.

I got my revenge though it wasn't enough.

I was sick and tired of detention afternoon.

I looked at the bag that rested next to me on the bleachers. My eyes moved to the owner who was practicing on the sidelines on the pitch.

I held so much resentment for the girl I called my girlfriend. Of course this was her fault.

She just couldn't control her fucking hormones.

If she didn't go whoring around I wouldn't have had to enforce order to that fucker Nathan.

Everyone would be happy.

"I just realised something." Connor suddenly said coming towards me.

"What is it Connor?" I was really in no mood for his shit and I'm pretty sure he was probably about to say something stupid.

"I realised that fucking is that fucking word you can fucking put any fucking where in a fucking sentence and it will still make fucking sense." He snorted.

Like I said he was probably about to say something stupid.

I rolled my eyes.

"What are you talking about Connor?" I asked him and raised eyebrow in questioning.

"Your life is a fucking mess." He declared and I rolled my eyes.

I didn't deny that. My life had always been a fucking mess but most important I realised that I create most of those messes.

But right now, my life had no meaning.

"Your mouth is full of shit. You're useless." I deadpanned and continued to watch both the cheerleaders and football practice.

"Am I really though? I'm sitting with you here keeping you company while you're having a pity party." He pointed out.

"I didn't ask you didn't I?" I countered very bored.

I truly didn't feel like doing the back and forth with Connor. It always proves pointless.

"No you didn't but I'm your friend and I'll sit with you even when you don't deserve it." It was no secret how angry and bitter I've been all throughout the week.

I couldn't be blamed though. Who wouldn't be bitter if they've fallen from grace like I did.

Just a week ago I was everything but a week later I'm nothing. Completely nothing.

I realised that cheerleading practice was over.

Kate lifted her head to see if I was still there. She waved and her teammates teased her, gushing over me. As always.

She pointed fingers at them and said some shit, probably some dump shit threatening them.

They followed each other to the locker rooms to shower, I guess.

I waited as she went to take a shower and changed.

Few words were exchanged between me and her this week. I still very angry at her and I'd rather not talk to her at all but I have to admit.

In this school, she's the only thing going on for me right now and I can't deny how half the football team last over her and she's fucking mine.

Mine alone and I'll show her that.

All I've done this past week is pick her up and drop her off at her house only because I don't wanna be fooled again by her.

And because I have to keep up appearances. If anyone found out what she's did, I'll be a fucking laughing stock. No shit.

All they know is that Nathan was hitting on her and I beat the shit out of him.

Kate knows better that to say otherwise and so does Nathan.

"See you at the house Connor." I told him and stood up.

I picked Kate's bag.

"I'll be late. I have to race tonight and I have practice." He told me.

I nodded and left him sitting on the bleachers.

I opened my car and threw Kate's bag on the passengers seat. I pushed my car back and leaned on it and closed my eyes.

Connor was right, I've been doing a pity party all week.

Ten minutes later the passenger door opens. Right then I opened my eyes and my eyes fell on the clock on the dashboard.

Kate was right on time, as always.

"All done." She said.

I didn't say anything or even looked at her. She pisses me way too much.

I just started the car and backed out of the parking space.

The car ride was spent in silence like it always is. Kate scared to say or do anything because I will snap and me, just fucking pissed.

Nothing out of the ordinary.

The only noise that was filling the car was the car engine and our breathing.

I parked right on her street and leaned back on the seat again. I left the engine running.

After all I'll be out of here in less than a minute.

Seconds went by and I realise that Kate wasn't moving.

I sighed and mentally rolled my eyes. Typical women, always predictable.

"What?" I deadpanned. "Just say whatever shit you wanna say and get the fuck out of my car."

I didn't bother being gentle. I don't fucking know who she thinks she is bit she's no damn Kim Kardashian or even Jesus's mother.

She needed to get the fuck out of my car before I forget she's a girl, again.

She sighed.

"This is getting old very fast Sage. The silent treatment is frankly boring now." She said and I tilted my head to look at her.

She gave me a determined looked.

"I don't have anything to say to you." I told her and raised an eyebrow.

"How old are you? 3 years, grow up would you." She said and crossed her arms over her chest.

I gave her a side glance and began tapping the staring wheel.

"Why are we still together then? I mean if we won't talk that is." She asked crossing her arms over her chest.

"I was thinking the same thing." I said dryly and her eyes widened a bit before she collected herself.

"You do know I can have any guy I want in school right? And they'd be happy to be my boyfriend." She said with a grim.

"But you want me. No one else and you seem to forget who I am." I told her as a matter of fact.

"Who? Tell me Sage. You use to be co-captain. Why should I want to be with you now?" She asked both me and her.

But I knew she was lying. She has always wanted me. Even before I become co-captain or even before I got the car.

"Because you will always want me." My blank expressionless facade was cracking fast.

The anger was showing.

"Maybe I should date the new co-captain. After all I'm also a co-captain." She suggested more to herself.

The last self control I had snapped nasty.

In seconds I crossed the space between us and I was now stranding her and my hands were dangerously on her neck.

I was holding back so damn hard so I wouldn't choke her right now.

She doesn't understand, until I'm through with her and deemed her worthless, she will be mine until I say otherwise then she can date or even fuck other peoole, I don't care.

But until then, she is mine to do as I please.

I never like sharing. I still don't. I won't share her with no one else. I've done that with Alora and it fucking sucks.

"Sage." Kate cried out surprised and tried to push me off but I didn't budge.

Her eyes were wide and full of fear. She tried backing away but she had no room to run.

"You seem to forget what happens when you open that smart mouth of yours." I started tracing a finger on her neck.

She tried moving her head away but like I said. She had no room to run.

"Let me make you understand something. Again. You.are.mine." I told her ever so slowly so she could understand. "For as long as I want and until then, you will not look at any other guy, you will not think of other guys. You will only have eyes for me."