FREDERIK'S POV
"You idiot, brad. I thought you were going to correct your mistakes, and then what is this? I thought you loved her, you are a jerk, dude. A total talk shit, Fred." Swearing and preaching coming from my friends. Damn it, don't they get why I chose my son... that's my son. He is in this difficult time, where his mom was diagnosed with a mental illness... yes Diana went crazy, she could not cope with the embarrassment she received, moreover when she found out that our marriage was not registered. And when the Franks’ rejected her, legally. She almost committed suicide and damn it --Daniel Apolonio was nowhere to be found. I thought he loved Diana? Why doesn't he show up now and protect the person he loves.
"How can you say that, Frederik?, you can't even do it to the person you love. You can't even protect Leysa. And again, you left her! It wasn't Leysa who left but you who turned your back on her," said my conscience. But damn, I can't prioritize the woman I love who is capable of herself more than my son who is unconscious and in a vulnerability stage.
"My son needs me more, Art..." I just said.
And he just shook his head, "Have you got a DNA yet?" I shook at David's question.
"There is no need for that, I have been with the child for almost six years - we have a bond somehow and that will only add to the child's trauma. So whether he is my child or not - just, I'll take responsibility of him. Especially since the Franks will not accept him now that Diana is no longer a member of their family. And I also feel guilty for what I did to Diana. I deceived her, we just made no difference. She used someone to get Frank's riches, and so am I --I used her to get WilCo.," I explained.
"I don't know to you, Fred. Just be happy, brad. Not everything you will just take responsibility out of guilt, do you think that will correct your wrong decisions in life? - No, that will only add up to your what ifs in life. Well It's still up to you, dude. Just don't asked for my help if ever you are wrong again," Franco said with a laugh. He is mad at me –it’s visible in his face.
But I know they are always there for me, no matter how stupid I am.
"Hello Philippines and Hello World. Our guest for tonight is the very controversial woman of all time. Please welcome, Ms. Leysa Frank --oh wait, it's Guevara? Oh sorry... again, please all welcome, Ms. Leysa Guevara ."
I suddenly turned my attention to the television screen here in David's house. I came here with my son, so that he could bond with David’s son. And it was a timing that the two, Art and Franco, also went here.
"She's really beautiful. You really don't want her anymore, Fred?" I turned in Franco's direction. I did not answer him but I don't like how he said that, I'm still hurt at the thought of not being able to let her in my life now. So I looked back at the TV. This is her first time to come out for an interview. She is really beautiful on and off the screen. And I badly wanted her, I want to claim her, over and over again. But damn this responsibility thing, it is eating me whole. That's it, Franco was right, I am taking responsibility out of guilt. That is also the reason why I do not want to have a DNA test with my son because I might find out the truth that will push me to turn my back on the child. What will happen to him if ever that would happen? I can't just leave him in an orphanage, when I can be his father for the meantime. Diana was an orphan, no family of her own and I don't want that same psychological problem for Daniel. I'm not a fool to not know who the boy's father really is. Even if I don't take the DNA test, just in the child's name, I know that he is not mine. But that jerk of a man, Daniel Apolonio. I can't reach him, I can't find him. I hired so many agents to find him but no trace. When maybe I can give him my child, I mean Diana's child. Maybe there, only then will I be able to choose Leysa. I also don't want to just be with her and blame her someday because I have things I didn't got to fix in my life. I just hope that she will wait for me, when the right time comes, she will still be there ready to accept me again.
"How about I court her? She is single and I am, too. We are a match," Franco said again. Damn him.
I looked at him again and frowned, so he just laughed and shook his head.
We calmed down and focused on the show. Now, she will answer all the issues.
"So Ms. or Mrs. Guevara?" -Host
" (Chuckles) Ms., it will always be Miss." -Leysa
"Oh... I thought. Oh well, I am just curious, Ms. Leysa --are you related to Don Leonardo Guevara, the well-known business magnate of all time? And why did you change your surname?" -Host.
"He is my grandfather, mother side. The only one that is always on my side, the only person who can choose me without hesitation and at all cost. And the only person who asked me 4 years ago what really happened why I did that --you know the scandal I had 6 years ago. And I changed my name, because ... how can I use my father's name if he already hated and threw me away? (she bitterly smiled after answering it. I can feel her sadness and madness she felt towards her parents.)" -Leysa.
I also feel resentment in her words because I can't choose her... right now.
Please Leys, stay still. Wait for me.
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