Chapter 26: It’s Complicated
Hanna
Water. I was walking through it. No, on it, my feet covered by choppy, white-capped surf. I could hear her singing in the distance, the same lonely song
she always sang
Who are you? I asked, my voice echoing over the endless horizon, nothing but water for miles and miles.
But there it was the white building in the distance, the small, barren island rising above the sea. I looked up at the sun and moon, the two sitting next to each other, separated by a field of stars.
Who are you? I asked again, my steps quickening. I was running, my chest heaving with effort, but the building was still far, far away.
Please! Please wait for me!
But the water gave way beneath my feet, and I was submerged, floating down, deeper and deeper until the light from the surface of the waves disappeared.
Shrouded in darkness. Nothingness.
“Hanna!” she called, her voice watery and distant.
“I’m here!” I screamed, water flooding into my mouth, suffocating me. Please, I thought, stay asleep. Stay. Stay in the vision.
I tried to scream again, to bring her in. I could see her, a dark outline in the water, her hair twirling around her as she inched closer, and closer”:
I bolted upright in bed, water pouring from my mouth as I coughed and sputtered, reaching up to grip my throat that burned violently from the salt.
My bed was soaking wet, my nightgown sticking wetly to my skin as I retched, another burst of water running out of my mouth and down my neck and chest.
Learning to control this curse, or blessing, or whatever it was still seemed out of my grasp.
“Damnit!” I cried, exhausted. I reached up to wipe the tears rolling down my cheeks, hot against my chilled skin. I heard footsteps in the hallway and my bedroom door swung open, Kacidra’s figure filling the doorway.
She looked at me, terror and confusion etched into her face, the same look Dad always gave me, the same look he had always given Mom.
Kacidra stood for a moment, lingering with her hand on the doorknob before she closed the door again, her footsteps receding down the hallway and out of earshot
I let out a sob, reaching a shaking hand toward my bedside table and fishing in the drawer for the key I kept taped to its underside. I stood, my dress heavy as it fell around my knees, walking over to my closet and leaving wet footprints in my wake.
The journal was hidden among the tangle of thick jackets hanging in the closet. I reached into the emerald green coat, a piece that had once belonged to Mom, and pulled the thick, leather journal from the inner pocket, my hands trembling as I fumbled with the lock.
The key clicked into place, and the metal band that held the journal closed fell away, landing on the floor at my feet with a splash as it met with the water pooling beneath me.
I wrote it all down. Every single thing I remembered, just the way Mom had taught me. She said I could eventually control my dreams this way, elongate them, determine when and where I would wake.
But I was stuck. I had never made it out of this dream. I could never find my way forward, my way out.
I finished writing and retrieved the metal band, securing it back in place before taking out the key and putting it back in the coat.
i backed away from the closet, swallowing against the burning lump in my throat.
“I’m trying to get out of it, Mom!” I said in a whispered cry, sniffling like a child. “I don’t know where the door is. I’m trapped in it. I don’t understand why don’t understand what I need to do!”
Oh, if only Kacidra and Dad could hear me, and maybe they could. They would no doubt think I was even more deranged than they previously thought.
It was no wonder Dad was sending me away to marry Wrenn. I would join his pack, live amongst his people. My lucid dreams would no longer be my family’ s problem
And I would marry Wrenn. I would get as far away as I could from Red Lakes and the stain of my mother’s death that had a chokehold on my sister and father. The distance would free them, I thought. They would no longer be my keepers.
But not even an ocean could break the chain now wrapped around my soul that bound me to Rowan of Winter Forest.
Oh, how his arrival had thrown a wrench in my plans.
Wrenn was dumb. He always asked where I went swimming all the time, saying something crass about wanting to take me skinny dipping in the sulfur
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springs. He couldn’t see the disdain behind my eyes. He couldn’t peer into my mind and pull my innermost feelings and fears to the surface.
Rowan could, and he did. I don’t think he even realized he was doing it, either.
The water dream started the day he arrived in Red Lakes, only hours after I felt the mate pull. His scent sent me over the edge, exhausting and overwhelming me to the point I had to lay down, to bury my face in my pillow and breathe in the smell of goose down and linen to try and rid myself of it. He smelled like green things, like walking through the redwood trees after a heavy rain. He smelled like the earth after a late spring snow, when the air was slightly too warm for it to stick, and the trees were heavy with it.
Rowan, My Rowan. My mate.
My father would never let me go with him to Winter Forest. I embarrassed Father. He wouldn’t risk losing Ethan as an ally by allowing his insane daughter to set foot upon Ethan’s territory. No, he would send Kacidra. Kacidra the beautiful. Kacidra the fit. Kacidra the normal.
I would go with Wrenn. I would find the way out of my dream, the door.
And I would never say a word to Rowan. Because the closer I got to him, the more challenging my dreams became.
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