Chapter 88 Ethan, Do You Know Soren?
**Ethan‘s POV
I stood there with the necklace extended, waiting for Rosalie to tell me whether or not she would accept it. She just stood in the moonlight, and she didn‘t move.
Thad never seen her as angry as she was a minute ago, when she had yelled at me and told me how she had felt about things back then.
I certainly couldn‘t blame her. She had every right to be mad at me. In fact, she should‘ve been even angrier than she was. If it had been me in her shoes, I would‘ve been cursing and probably attacked the person before me. The fact that Rosalie only yelled and didn‘t punch me was a testament to her good nature.
But I saw in her eyes as she stared at me, looking from the necklace that she sold to my face and back again, that she was not ready to accept my apology.
She was not ready to forgive me, and I shouldn‘t have expected her to.
It was wrong of me to assume that she could move on so quickly after what I did. After all, I was going to have her put to death after our baby was born.
Not only was I going to end her life, but I was also going to sentence our child to a life without their mother.
I suddenly felt the very real possibility that she might refuse me.
With this realization, I was stricken with panic. I needed to do something before she could turn me down.
“Rosalie,” I say, withdrawing the necklace, “you don‘t have to decide right now. I recognize that it‘s too soon. I’m sorry that I put so much pressure on you to give me an answer immediately. That wasn‘t fair of me. I will give you the time you need and deserve to decide… but I would like to continue to see you.”
Again, before she could say anything I was afraid to hear, I added, “Please.”
“Who are you?” she finally said, her brow furrowed. “The Ethan I know would‘ve never, ever apologized twice in the same night.”
I looked down at the ground, rubbing the toe of my shoe into the soft soil of the garden for a moment, not sure how to respond to that.
She was right. I didn‘t think I‘d ever apologized to anyone else the way I had her that evening.
“I‘ve changed too, Rosalie. Maybe not toward everyone, but I‘ve changed toward you.”
The skeptical look on her face was visible even in the dim light of the moon that illuminated her hair and made her look even more lovely than usual. She made a noise in the back of her throat, a mix between a grunt and a moan.
I wanted to move forward and touch her, but I held back, knowing she wouldn‘t like that.
“I know it will take you some time to forgive me, Rosalie. Overhearing what you did, knowing what I planned to do…”
I couldn‘t even get the words out. I could only look down at the ground again and wish I had made better choices in my past.
“I can hardly forgive myself. I wouldn‘t expect you to simply brush it aside and pretend it never happened.”
“I can‘t,” she said, and I respect her honesty. “What you were going to do was– ” She began to tear up, and stopped talking.
“It was heartless,” I supplied for her.
“It was cruel.” Her head rocked back and forth in agreement.
“I‘m sorry.” That was all I could say.
She looked away. When she spoke again, her words were unsure.
“And now.. you want me to give up everything I have here and just go back to the same place I was before? The same life?”
I shook my head. “No, it wouldn‘t be the same. I can promise you that. I‘m not the same.”
“Why should I believe you?” she asked, still skeptical.
I sighed. I knew it wouldn‘t be easy, but at least she was willing to give me the chance to explain.
I tried to make myself sound as gentle as possible. “You shouldn‘t believe me.”
Her eyes flew wide open with surprise. “Do not take me at my word, but let me prove it to you through my actions.”
She didn‘t respond, only looked at me quietly, so I continued, “You should take as much time as you need to do that.
She finally asked, “how are you going to prove it to me?”
Luckily, I already had my answer. “With your help,” I said.
“My help?” She was even more skeptical.
“Yes. I want to learn more about you so that I can give you what you want,” I told her. “I want to hear everything about your new life.”
It pained me to think about how her eyes had lit up when she spoke about Soren earlier, but I needed to show her I could control my anger, and that I was interested in whatever made her happy.
But I couldn‘t allow that to happen. I‘d have to find a way to prove to her that I was the right one for her, and that, if she loved me once, she could love me again. I never, ever wanted to go back to the pain I’d felt before when I thought that she was gone.
After letting out a loud sigh, she finally said, “Fine. I‘ll try. But if the window is closed, you have to go away.”
A rush of joy ran through me. It wasn‘t ideal, but it was more than enough for now.
Her eyes went to the cottage. “I should go. I have to work tomorrow.”
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