Rachel thought, 'I'm the only woman that should be at Charles' side!' Clearly, she could feel anger, envy, and sorrow boiling in her heart, which made her feel very uneasy. All she wanted to do was shove Sheryl away from Charles! It was painful to see them being so close and affectionate towards one another!
Rachel wasn't even in the mood for the banquet anymore. She felt completely empty and as though she was unable to move her body. Her soul disappeared into thin air. It went to a faraway place where she knew that it wouldn't get hurt. However, even so, she was still eager to take a few more glances at Charles, the man she loved so much. Recalling her surroundings, she had forgotten why she was there in the first place. While the crowd was chatting about, drinking and having fun, she felt like she was an outcast. Even though she tried, she couldn't see, nor hear anything. It was as though someone pressed a pause button, and the world went completely silent.
The only person that she was able to see in the room, was Charles. In silence, she moved over to a dim corner to hide. Actually, she didn't really want to see Charles at all, because he was enjoying himself. To make things worse, the disgust he had in his eyes for her, was literally killing her!
She continued observing Charles holding Sheryl's hand tenderly. He smiled affectionately at Sheryl and even introduced Sheryl as his wife to others.
For no apparent reason, she couldn't move her eyes from Charles. Her eyes had captured every single move he made. Every scene playing out in front of her was deeply engraved at the bottom of her eyes and replayed itself over and over again. She felt tormented!
Perhaps the only way to ease her pain was to imagine herself as Sheryl at that moment. She couldn't help but picture herself next to Charles' side, which only brought her a brief moment of peace.
Dejected, she drank alone in the shade. The experience was bitter. Was it because of the alcohol? Or, perhaps due to the bitterness she'd felt in her heart? She couldn't come to a conclusion.
In her mildly drunken state, she couldn't resist the urge to approach Charles. Holding her glass of wine, she walked up towards Charles and Sheryl.
Sheryl was still holding Charles' hand, greeting the attendants whom she was acquainted with. She then saw Rachel standing close by, whom she hated with every fiber in he being.
Recalling what had happened between her and Rachel in her mind, Sheryl went completely silent.
Sheryl's abrupt mood was quickly noticed by Charles. He turned his head to Sheryl, only to find that her vision was fixed at someone in front of them.
Following Sheryl's gaze, he found her target. The next moment, his brows shot up.
Rachel could see the anger brewing in Sheryl's eyes. What was hurting her more, was Charles' impatience.
Her heart immediately sank. When she saw Charles pull Sheryl to another direction away from her, an ironically pleasing smile appeared on Rachel's face. Rachel then moved forward to block their way.
"What? Are you afraid of me? We can't even have a drink together now?" It was evident that Rachel wanted to provoke them. When Sheryl frowned, Rachel felt excited about her response. The people surrounding Sheryl and Charles noticed their somewhat hostile presence.
"Did you say, 'drink together'? Well, do you worth it?" Charles was being mean to Rachel. Her invitation was coldly rejected. Immediately, Rachel's face turned pale. The incident drew the crowd's attention, who were quietly exchanging glances and gossiping with one another. Being judged by the public, Rachel only wished she could vanish from everyone. Even though the idea thereof was painful, it seemed far better than being hurt by Charles or even being judged by others.
The colder Charles was towards her, the more she wanted him back. How could she accept her fate like this? In the past, she was the woman whom Charles treasured the most! He would always check up on her, even if the slightest thing bothered her.
"After all, we were a couple. Why am I not worth it?" Brows furrowed, Rachel looked deeply into Charles' eyes. It wasn't her intention to embarrass him, but the pain boiling in her heart was just too much for her to bear, so she blurted her words out. Soon enough, she managed to make up an excuse for her counter attack. 'You bastard...You've hurt me and now that I've caused you embarrassment, it's only fair.'
However, there was no fairness in their relationship whatsoever. If there were, most people wouldn't end up thinking about the other halves alone, while the people they were longing for were enjoying their lives with another love.
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