The Ember In The Dark novel Chapter 19

Toni let me embrace him for another couple minutes, before Ash and Rachel found us. They told us that everyone was going out to eat at the local pizza place. We all packed into Toni's car. Josh, Killian and Tris followed in Killian's jeep. Thankfully Dex drove his motorcycle home.

'You and Toni looked intimate.' Ash linked me.

'I want to let him in. I just don't know how much exactly.' I told him honestly.

'I'm impressed you're letting him in at all.'

'I'm trying.'

We got to the diner and all hopped down from the car. I hung back letting Rachel and Ash walk in front for a change.

'Get me a slice of cheese. I need to talk to Toni.' I linked Ash.

'Will do. Go get him, tiger.' He joked as he held the door open for Rachel.

I turned around holding my hand out for Toni to take. He looked at me a bit confused at first, but placed his hand in mine all the same. A slight smirk played on his lips as he rubbed the back of my hand with his thumb.

"What's up?" He asked curiously.

"Can we talk for a minute?" I asked him shyly. I am not sure what exactly I am going to say, but I want Toni to know how I feel about him.

"Of course. Everything okay?" He asked worriedly. 'Is she mad at me for hugging her so long?' I heard his thoughts enter my mind.

"Just come with me." I pulled him towards the side of the building where there wasn't anyone around. I didn't want anyone to hear what I have to say.

"Ember, I'm starting to get worried. What is it?" He asked me after I stood in front of him, silent for a couple of minutes.

"I'm sorry. This is just hard for me." I sighed, staring at the ground trying to gather my thoughts and my courage that seemed to have vanished.

"You can tell me anything, Ember. I am not going anywhere." He tried comforting me with his words.

"I told you last night I've been hurt and it's hard for me to trust people. It's nothing you've done, in fact the opposite. You make me want to trust you. I can feel the pull of the bond, but it's not just the bond. You're a great guy Toni. I just want you to know that although I'm not ready for you to claim me just yet, that I'm willing to take things slow with you. I mean if you're wanting to anyway." I finally blurted out. My eyes were glued on the ground the whole time I talked.

"Ember." He called my name and I looked up meeting those brown irises of his. "I am more than happy to do whatever you're wanting to do. If that means just having these stolen moments with you, then that's more than enough for me." He smiled that dazzling smile of his, as his thumb caressed my cheek.

I felt my face heat up as the crimson tinted my cheeks. His gentle caress made the hair on the back of my neck stand on end. I wanted nothing more than to feel his lips against my own right now.

"Kiss me?" I asked him shyly.

"Hey!" I slapped his shoulder lightly. "That's mine."

"Can't share?" He asked, taking another bite and then putting it down on my plate.

"No " I huffed, but there was a smirk on my face I couldn't wipe away.

"Ember, never shares food. She's a bottomless pit." Ash laughed.

"Rachel's the same way." Toni elbowed her arm.

"Whatever. At least we stay skinny." She told them both.

We all ate, spoke and laughed. It was a really nice evening out. It felt odd knowing that at just the beginning of this week I was depressed without friends and without a wolf. Now I sit here surrounded by new friends, filled with laughter and joy. A strong wolf inside me with magic and a dragon I will later meet.

I'm worried though, life never goes this perfectly for me. I am scared of getting too accustomed to this happiness. If one day I were to lose these people from my life, I would be more depressed than ever before, having had a taste of what friendship feels like.

We all said our goodbyes and jumped into Toni's car. I was feeling pretty wiped from tonight's events and I felt my head start to bob against the car window.