The Fire and The Storm - The Nexus of Kellaran #2 novel Chapter 193

Part 26

“Yes they are, but they’ve chosen to wait for divinity until they grow up.” Mark told her, and made sure the rest heard it. “They recognize the value of the mortal state of being. Believe me, as wonderful as this is, I still wish I hadn’t had to do it yet. I sure didn’t feel finished with enjoying life as a mortal yet, and now I can’t go back. I can decide to have a mortal body and ignore all my new characteristics, but there’s no fooling yourself about not being the same.”

“We think they’re so much better than us because they shared your minds completely for seven years.” Kimran stated. “If we hadn’t been so stupid and we’d shared with you completely when we first developed psionics, we’d have shared your minds for seven years by now too, and we’d be just as good as they are.

“They said we should wait until we’re better before we shared ourselves with you completely, but none of us want to wait. We know we haven’t been very nice, but you already know that, and I don’t think we’re really any worse inside than we showed you we were with our behavior.”

“All of us want to share ourselves with all of our parents.” Meechla told him. “And we want to do it from now on, as much as we can.

“And I want to say this again, all of us do, to all of you; I’m really sorry I’ve been so stupid and bad.”

“That’s okay, we forgive you.” Mark smiled. “We won’t share with you completely; there were a few things we never shared with them either, and it’s not safe to share the new aspects of us that we just got. But we’ll share as much with you as we shared with them, and that’s almost all of it.

Then he, Talia, and Alilia built a deep Link between themselves and the Volunteers and their children, establishing it slowly so it was comfortable for everyone.

There were many tears shed over the next few minutes due to the profound sharing of selves and love and pain and regret.

The Mark that was still sitting with the Governors waved them over and into his arms. “You lied to them.” he chuckled, a bit sadly. “You didn’t want them to share with us right away because you didn’t want us to realize how badly we messed up when we were raising them. Thanks for trying to protect us from that, but we deserve to know.”

“You were just way too nice for your own good, and theirs.” Fire shrugged, cuddled into the crook of his left arm. “Sometimes the ends really do justify the means. Sometimes a kid deserves a spanking, and sometimes you have to violate your dependent children’s privacy in order to know what you have to do to help them.”

“You’re a god now.” Val smiled as she brushed away a tear that was trickling down his cheek. “You don’t have to cry if you don’t want to.”

“True.” he smiled. “But I still want to be the kind of person that cries when I feel emotions that would trigger it. If we suppress our emotions, or our natural expression of them, pretty soon we won’t even think like people anymore.”

“I think crying is still a healthy expression of emotion for us.” Talia quietly stated. “But I can see myself suppressing some of the horror of battle. At least in the heat of the moment, if not afterward.”

“How much ability do you think you’ve gained in terms of your combat effectiveness score?” Six asked, a bit uncomfortable with the conversation and ready to change the subject.

“A lot.” Mark told him with a smile and a cuddle. “I can still do everything I did before with magic, and a lot more. Plus everything I can do with god power, plus the ability to do a lot more at once due to better awareness and multitasking ability. At a guess, I’d say my score should be at least triple what it was. I’m kind of looking forward to the next exercise just to test it.