‘But she didn’t.‘ Sandy's pregnancy was like a ticking time bomb that had exploded right next to me and completely caught me off guard.
On one side, it was the ex who I couldn’t get my mind off and was pregnant with my child; on the other, it was the woman who wanted to marry me.
I really didn’t know what to do.
‘Whenever I saw Sandy cry, I would always think of Pearl.Pearl has never cried, and I’ve never seen her cry or show her fragile side to me ever since I got to know her.‘
When the engagement was canceled, and she moved out of the apartment, I couldn’t control my urge any longer and defiled her while I was drunk.
I finally got my hands on the woman that I once despised.
‘She isn’t as bad as I thought, and it wasn’t that she couldn’t or wouldn’t cry.It was just that she didn’t care.It hurts me deep down when I see her crying.That’s why I didn’t want to see her cry.‘
It’s undeniable that I have feelings for Pearl.
Perhaps I was already tempted from the moment I started paying attention to her or from the moment I felt a little strange about her deep down.
‘After learning that Sandy had framed Pearl for her miscarriage, and then the truth that she had once borrowed money from loan sharks, it became clearer and clearer to me that what I loved was the Sandy that I knew in the past, and what I couldn’t let go of was the beautiful emotions and memories that we had created in the past.‘
And when the flaws of the near-perfect person who gave me all those memories appeared, it became clear to me that everything was just an illusion, and the bubble formed by the memories I shared with Sandy popped in an instant.
I couldn’t accept Sandy’s true colors, however, I could accept Pearl, whose past was even more unbearable than Sandy’s.
Was it because Sandy had changed? In fact, it was not.
It was only because of the change in my perspective.
‘I was the one who had changed.‘
If Sandy didn’t choose to commit suicide because she couldn’t accept that I’ve fallen in love with Pearl, I would have chosen to confess everything to Pearl.
However, Sandy’s death was unacceptable to me.
How could I still fall in love with Pearl like nothing’s happened after Sandy just died because of this?
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