The Vampire Teacher (GirlxGirl) novel Chapter 115

"I think you need to go and rest darling." Brenda's mother told me as we walk out of the kitchen.

"I'm fine mom really." I assure her she was so worried about me and I understand her.

"Are you really okay? Brenda aasked me when we reach the stairs smiling at me.

" I'm fine love really I just wish I could stop having this flashes really I just want to have a normal life it's all. "I said walking up the stairs with LJ's small hand in mine.

" Maybe I can do something."Brenda said next to me as I look at  her.

" What?

" Compel you." she told me as I just look at her not knowing how it will help any of my flashes.

"Babe please stop joking around." I told her walking up to chrissy's room.

"I'm serious here Lucia please I can see you like this while I know I can do something let me just compel you to forget that everything had happened for this week and then I will take it back and then you can choose what you want but please think about the baby. "she told me as I look at her not believing that everything is just about the baby.

" Baby, baby so everything will go about this child who I don't want if you care so much about this child who is not even born yet then I don't know what I will meant for all of you here in this house when she is born. I don't care about this child and no Brenda  just leave me the yell alone! I scream at her and speed off towards my room leaving them in front of chrissy room and lock myself in the room crying.

You know what I touch my stomach feeling how she kicks me I don't care about you you became a problem for me I don't want you I don't need you just die okay I scream hitting on my stomach so many times feeling the pain on my fits on my skin making me growl out as I just wanted to rip this child out of my stomach and throw her away.

"I hate you I hate you! Scream throwing  and destroying everything in my away screaming so hard.

Brenda is not going to forgive and will never see my daughter again what have I done I cry rolling myself into a boll as hold my legs close to my chest thinking about Brenda and LJ. I can't lose them now but I have already I just could have accepted Brenda to compel me but I just thought about myself again.

"I'm so stupid, so stupid." I clap myself all in the face with tears rolling down my face.

"Lucia please tell where are you? I heard Brenda's voice asked me.

" I'm a mess Joan I won't be able to make you happy I'm sorry but I can't  I'm dirty and I know you don't want me I wouldn't be a good mom to LJ just reject me please Brenda . "I told her in the mind link.

" Lucia just tell me where are you okay please I don't care how dirty you are and I'm not going to reject you let me help you. "she said  as she sounds like she was crying.

" No one can help me Brenda .