True Luna novel (Emma and Logan) novel Chapter 8

Chapter 8 Coping

Emma POV

I never thought I could feel this much pain and survive. My whole body is trembling, and my soul is in pieces. There is a huge hole in my heart, and I don’t think I will ever be able to fix it.

My mate doesn’t want me.

I am not good enough.

My brother thinks I am weak.

My mate rejected me. He will have a new Luna, and I will have to look at them every day.

I don’t know how I came home. I don’t remember the path. Pain clouded my vision.

I left Logan and Andrew in the forest, and I just started running away.

I couldn’t go back to the cave. I didn’t want them to find it. It would mean that I wouldn’t be safe there anymore.

We always used masking spray before coming into the cave. But Andrew and Logan came close to finding it. I guess it was because of the mate bond. Logan could smell me better.

I started walking to my room. I shut the door and locked it. I didn’t want to see my brother. I didn’t want to talk to him. I wanted to be alone.

I laid on my bed and stared at the ceiling. I just wished I could feel numb. Not happy. I didn’t think I would ever be happy again. The best I could have hoped for was numbness. Maybe I would be able to achieve that. Maybe the pain would burn through my body tonight, and in the morning, there would be nothing left but numbness. Like poison. It burns, destroys, and leaves.

I heard my brother opening the back door and running upstairs. He tried to open my bedroom door.

“Emma?” he called me. “Emma, open the door, please.”

I stayed silent. I didn’t want to talk to him.

“Emma, please.” he said. “Let me explain.”

There was nothing to explain. I was a weak, small she-wolf, who could never be good enough to be a Luna. Or Logan’s mate.

Andrew tried to talk to me a few more times, but he gave up when I refused to answer.

I heard him sigh and walk away.

I continued to stare at the ceiling. What a way to end a birthday. My day started full of excitement, love, and new beginnings, only to end in pain and misery. I never thought it would happen like this.

I stayed up all night staring at the ceiling and wishing the pain would go away. It sort of worked. By the time I was supposed to get up and go get breakfast, the pain was better, bearable. Maybe I could tell that a small part of me was numb. That was a start.

I heard my brother wake up. He walked downstairs to the kitchen and started making breakfast. Half an hour later, I heard Sienna coming. A little while after, Logan arrived as well.

It was tradition for them. They always met at our house, had breakfast, and then they went and done their Alpha and Beta duties. Sienna just went around being a bitch to everybody. But soon she would have Luna’s duties.

I looked at my watch and saw that I had to be at the training ground in an hour. I decided to get ready and get there early. I couldn’t stand being in the same house as them.

I got up and hopped in the shower. I quickly got dressed and tied my hair in a ponytail. I looked in the mirror and my lack of sleep was clearly visible on my face. I sighed and unlocked my bedroom door.

I decided to leave through the back door, so I didn’t have to see anybody.

But my brother heard me.

“Emma?” he called me and came running from the kitchen.

I stared at him blankly.

“Where are you going?” he asked me.

“Training grounds.” I said quietly.

“It is early.” he said. “And Jacob is not here yet.”

There was a loud growl in the kitchen. Logan.

I ignored it and put my focus back on my brother. “I want to get there early today.”

“Oh. Okay.” my brother said nervously. “But you didn’t eat anything.”

“I am not hungry.” I said and walked through the door.

I closed them before he could say anything.

I walked over to the training grounds, and I saw that Jake was already there.