Twins in Her Womb (Bianca and Luke Crawford novel) novel Chapter 1996

"I love Gordan very much. I fell in love with him at first sight." Vivian clasped the cup in her hand tightly and took a deep breath.

Luca nodded without interrupting her.

“I never thought that the man I fell in love with at first sight would be interested in me. Gordan came up to me and struck up a conversation with me. He has a fine sense of humor, and he didn’t despise me for my ugly looks. Even though it was unbelievable, I fell even deeper in love with him when I met him for the second time. But later I learned that Gordan was only teasing me when he said he liked me. Still, I didn’t mind. I’ve never asked for anything in my whole life. I’m ugly, so I don’t have the right to speak. But when Gordan told me that he didn’t like me and he was just fooling around, I came up with an idea.” Vivian did not know Luca was actually Bianca. That was why she summarized it and explained her past as well as how she met Gordan.

“You kept him by your side?” Luca asked. She had heard about their past before.

"Yes. Gordan was good at fighting, but Ray has more capable men around him. I said I wanted him, so Gordan was left with no choice but to stay by my side. I thought he would be able to notice me and disregard my looks as long as I kept him around. But many years have passed and he still hasn’t fallen for me. Instead, the hatred he has for me grows every day. Sometimes, when I ask him to keep me company, it’s as though Ray is carrying a gun behind him and forcing him to do it. Even so, I'd be happy because at least he was still beside me.” Teardrops fell from Vivian's eyes. She was happiest when she got to see Gordan every day.

Luca nodded and thought to herself that Vivian was too humble.

However, she could not tell her.

Luca’s gestures were telling Vivian that she was still listening to her. Hence, Vivian continued, “But I just found out that my happiness is built on Gordan’s pain. He has been suffering all this time, being together with an ugly woman he isn’t in love with. My happiness is his pain. So, I finally decided to give up on my happiness. That way, Gordan doesn’t have to suffer anymore. I decided to let him go. Gordan should be happy now.”

Luca was surprised. Vivian had decided to let him go?

Luca thought Gordan had done something to upset Vivian, and that was why she was hiding. She did not expect Vivian had let him go.

“You’ve decided to split up with Mr. Norton?” Luca asked carefully.

"It's a divorce. I've signed the divorce papers. And I’m guessing that he should've seen them by now and signed his name on them. He'll be able to hand in the divorce agreement soon. There'll be nothing left between us after this," said Vivian. Tears were constantly streaming down her face.

Vivian was really letting him go this time.

“But you’re reluctant,” said Luca.

Vivian smiled bitterly, and her tears could not stop falling. "It's hard for me. But I feel sorry for making suffer for so many years. Loving someone means making them happy and not letting them suffer. I realized that I've made a mistake. I want to make up for it. But the best compensation is to break up with him. That’s what I did."

“But you’re in pain.” Luca looked at Vivian as she cried. Vivian was not considered pretty, and she looked funny when she was crying like a clown on stage.

However, Luca could feel how painful it was for her to leave someone she loved.

Luca was forced to leave Luke back then too. The pain lasted for three years. Even Nyla’s birth could not bring much comfort to her heart.

It was only until she came back to him that the pain subsided. However, she only came here because she was assigned a mission to harm Luke. That was why Luca did not feel much happier even though Luke was right beside her.

There was only guilt and reluctance.

Luca knew exactly how Vivian felt now.

“I’ll get through this. I don’t want Ray to know that I miss Gordan even after making my decision. That’s why I chose to stay in a hotel. I plan to go back home after a few days.” Vivian took a deep breath. She should stop crying now.

Vivian had been crying all night. She should not be crying again.

As a grown-up, crying could never solve problems. Vivian had to learn to get over her feelings for Gordan.

“You didn’t rest well last night, right?” Luca asked.