Werewolf’s Heartsong novel Chapter 27

Chapter 27

Alora’s POV

Today seemed to be a day for reliving horrible things, that have happened to me in the past. Unfortunately to figure out what has happened and why, I have to relive the bad, painful, bloody memories. Not a fun adventure. It just further illuminated how fucked up and abusive my family has been to me. ‘Will I ever be able to heal from the wounds they had all gleefully given me?’ I wondered. 2

“How do we heal from all that has been done to us?” I ask Xena.

“I don‘t know...but maybe…? she hesitates.

“Maybe?” I prompt her.

“Maybe we could talk to Luna Ember?’ she’s still hesitant.

I could understand why she was always urging me to talk to someone, to tell them what was happening. And while I would talk about some of it to Darien… I’ve never told him about the full extent of the horrors visited on me. I still haven’t told him about what dad did, that one time he was drunk, shaking my head to avoid that atrocious memory. I focus on what Xena had said.

“I think....you might be right...and maybe we should talk to the Luna I finally say to her. I feel her surprise at my words, already understanding it. “I want to heal, we‘re an Alpha now, we need to be healthy mentally.” I pause a moment. “Well as mentally healthy as we could possibly be, considering all that‘s happened.” I say the last in a dry tone.

Xena snorts at this last comment. She says in a soft tone ‘I‘m glad you‘re

finally going to get us help.‘

I think about that for a moment, by denying myself help I had denied her help. I suddenly felt guilty, I wasn’t the only one experiencing the abuse I suffered. She had too, that suddenly made me realize my silence hadn’t only hurt me, “I‘m so sorry Xena, I should have spoken up when you first urged me to.” I tell her.

‘You needed to be able to accept the help too. Besides, we‘re stronger now than any other wolf here, except for Alpha Andrew.’ she says. I chuckle at the last bit. I love my wolf, she’s so special. “I promise, we‘ll talk to Luna Ember soon.” I tell her. I would seek help, not just for me, but for Xena too. It wasn’t just me who needed to heal.

It took Darien sitting next to me, and practically pushing me to the floor from my seat, to snap my attention

back to what was going on. “Shit, we didn‘t pay attention to his fight.” I tell Xena. I struggled to keep from looking guilty as I met his annoyed gaze, and failed miserably. “I’m sorry.” I finally say after a minute of his silent glaring

“You didn’t pay attention to any of my fight did you?!” Was his questioned accusation. Cringing, a guilty half smile on my face. “Noooooo…..” I draw out the answer then said in a rush “But I may know who put the chains on me and Xena!” I finished brightly, Hoping I’m forgiven for finding out something we had both wanted to know.

He suddenly jumps forward and grabs me by my upper arms. With a firm but gentle shake, he gazes intently into my eyes and says. “Tell me everything and all will be forgiven.” I laugh. “Ok, but you have to let me go first.” I tell him. He lets go of my arms and sits

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back, then wiggles like an excited puppy before whining “Tell meeee. making me laugh more.

There were two fights before his and my second fights, so I had time to tell him everything Xena and I discussed. Telling him what Xena told me, what the Moon Goddess had said. He’s silent for awhile looking contemplative. “I have a couple of theories about this.” he finally tells me. “OK.” I say. “What are your theories?” I ask.

“So your mother rejected her destined mate because he was not blond haired and blue eyed, yeah?” I nod. “And because of this she doesn’t receive the Goddess’s acknowledgment like she was going to, and was not allowed to ascend?” I nod again. “So her first daughter, the one she rejected her destined mate for, the one that comes out as desired, is the one that will never be

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