Lewis did not stop when he heard Sierra's words. He went up to her and crouched.
Panicked, she wanted to hide her face behind something. There was nothing on the floor to grab. She had no choice but to hide her face behind her arms.
When he touched her on the shoulder, she trembled. He wanted her to face him, but she shook her head and struggled against his grip. "Don't look at me. Get out! Please!"
"Sierra!" He raised his voice. She froze as she was momentarily taken aback. Then, she scrambled to lie on the floor.
A few moments later, she finally cried out hysterically. Resting her head on her arm, she cried her heart out. The sounds of her crying echoed in the room.
He lowered his gaze at her. She was stained in blood. Her hair was easily shorter than his.
The burn scars were visible on the skin across her forehead, temples, jaw, and nape. The wounds had begun to scab but did not peel off yet. The scars sprawled over her exposed skin like dark creases. It was a nauseating sight, if not ugly.
After days of mentally prepping herself for the reveal, Sierra still broke down when she saw herself in the mirror. Her calmness in the doctor's eyes was, in fact, hopelessness.
She lost her will to live after taking a look at herself. She wanted nothing more than instant death to vanish from the world.
Disfiguration was a massive blow to a woman. Not only that, Sierra's case was severe. She was nothing like her previous self.
Finally, her crying waned. He asked, "Do you regret your decision?"
She closed her eyes. She didn't answer the question. It would be a lie to say she didn't regret it. However, there was no point crying over spilled milk.
A moment later, she confessed to him between sobs, "Yeah. I regret it. I don't regret saving you from the fire. I regret that you did not feel sorry for me even when I sacrificed this much for you. Why did I risk my life? What was that for?"
Tears flowed down her cheeks and drenched her sleeves once again.
A long pause later, Lewis finally helped her up from the floor. She turned her face away awkwardly to avoid his gaze.
She heard him saying, "You are in for a disappointment if you do something in the hope of some form of return."
She was taken aback by the remark. He added, "Humans are greedy. You are always dissatisfied and going after something."
His voice was as calm as usual. It was almost chilling to hear him.
"So?"
"So, don't be dumb next time."
Sierra chortled between tears when she heard him. One couldn't tell if she was crying or laughing.
"Right. I'm just an idiot. The biggest idiot who's proud of myself, just because you once said you liked how clueless I was … Hahaha …"
Sierra was close to insanity. Lewis' words almost made her give up on herself. She steeled herself and spun around to face his gaze. Just like that, she exposed her disfigured face in front of him.
Her face was scarier than expected. Brownish scars sprawled across her face. Her nose bridge had collapsed, making her nostrils flare upward.
Lewis did not react much except for a gleam in his eyes.
"Would you still like me if I looked like this?" She stared at her. Her shamefulness and ugliness were on full display. To her surprise, she didn't see the expected reaction from him.
She wondered if he was mentally tough or simply did not care about her appearance.
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