"Winnie?!" In shock, Hudson let her go and saw that her face was already covered in tears. She even bit her lips until they bled, which left Hudson dumbfounded.
“Let me go! Please.” He finally removed his hands from her body, as she continued to cry and bit down on her lips. Only she knew just how painful and sorrowful she felt.
“Winnie,” Hudson was still in a daze. He thought her resistance was due to shyness since they have been apart for a while, but now he knew that wasn’t it. A wave of guilt and pain began to swell inside him, and he let her go, filled with a depression that could make anyone feel sorry for him.
Originally, he thought that, by acting dominant and hugging and teasing her he could make her happy, and there might have been a chance for them to make up.
But he was wrong; her body, her heart rejected him completely. She didn’t want him anywhere near her at all. But why was this; was he the only one who felt heartbroken?
“I’m not some woman you can bully as you please. And I’m definitely not your plaything!” She said as she shoved him, then she shut her eyes and bent down.
There were countless nights where she suddenly awoke from a nightmare and cried by herself until morning came.
Her dreams always encircled that night, where he’d rather mutilate himself than make love to her. Had grandfather not fed Hudson some ambrosia, he’d still never touch her! So, everything between the two of them was wrong from the beginning. She mustn’t keep this mistake up any longer!
While she was in New York, she was on a foreign land where she didn’t know anyone. Yet, he just left her there to bleed by herself. Even now, there was no way to fill the empty void in her heart.
For four years, she’d thought she was free. But the second she returned to the country and heard that they were still married, she was bewildered and couldn’t possibly understand why he would do that. Didn’t he always want to get a divorce? Was it because Esther wouldn’t be together with him, so he wouldn’t let her go?
But, alas, even love becomes a bitter fruit if it is forced! She didn’t want to remain in an unrequited, one-sided relationship any longer.
While he has been better toward her these past four years, she was still exhausted and afraid. She was a deserter who didn’t want to endure any more pain. She didn’t even dare to ask him if he even liked her one bit. She just wanted to leave!
He couldn’t bring himself to look her in the eyes. She was afraid to see a wavering look in his eyes and afraid that, if she softened up, she’d fall right back to how she was before. That time in her life was a torment! She didn’t want to relive that at all!
“I’m sorry, I know I hurt you too deeply, but I don’t want to get divorced!” Hudson also bent down and placed a hand on her shoulder as he looked into her eyes with a soft glance.
“Why don’t you want to get a divorce?” She forced a smile from her tear-filled face; it was a smile mixed with loneliness and despair.
“Because I just don’t want to!” His reply was always so vague.
“Not everything in the world has to go your way. It doesn't work like that. Back then, I didn’t want you to leave me to go save Esther, but you still went, didn’t you? I thought you loved me, but you don’t love me at all, don’t you? Right now, all I want is my freedom, to start a new life. Is it because you can’t stand to see me happy? Did you become even more pervert over these past four years?”
“Winnie!” Hudson was dumbfounded, but he remained patient against her wild accusations, “You’re angry because I hurt you, right? I won’t do it anymore, not ever again, I promise!”
She stood up and headed to the bathroom to rinse her face. She didn’t want to cry anymore. What reason did she have to cry? “I don’t want your promises, I want a divorce!”
Hudson was in a tough spot. Why did she have to be so stubborn? But he knew he was the original cause of all this mess, that there was no one to blame but himself.
Suddenly, his cell began to ring.
He looked to see it was Esther calling.
He picked up the call.
“Hudson, you’re doing the right thing; you should take Winnie and just leave G City!”
“What, how do you know this?” Hudson asked confusedly.
“I happened to see you both leave, so I followed you two until you went up the freeway! Hudson, you have to remember to be responsible and see things through, or your wife won’t be your wife anymore! She might not be able to have a normal baby right now, but even if she married someone else, her new husband knows that it was because of you that she can’t rear a child, he will abuse her to no end. If that happens, you’ll regret it for the rest of your life!”
“But—”
“But what? All women will never say what they really think and feel!” Esther then reminded him, “It doesn’t matter what you’ve done before, they’ll forget it by the next day. Will it kill you to put in some good words and act manly?”
“But—”
“No more buts, hurry up, I’m hanging up now!” Esther said and hung up.
Hudson wrinkled his eyebrows; he watched as Winnie stepped out of the restroom, then he walked behind her and placed an arm behind her thin waist, then rested his head on her shoulder, “I’m sorry! Winnie, I know I’ve hurt you!”
“I don’t want your apology; what good will that do? It doesn’t change anything!” She didn’t expect that he’d say such a thing. She’d just tidied up her face, but now tears began to fall down her face again.
Just what was going on?
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the writing is quite childish, but maybe it's just the translations...