Winnie did not answer. He held her tightly in his arms once again. He was very domineering as he didn’t allow her to struggle. He said, “I am still in your heart, right? Are you worried that I don’t eat, worried that I don’t eat well so you order the food personally, worried that I will eat so quietly and have a stomachache, so you would rather spend your own time and wait for me to finish eating? Don't lie to yourself, do you still love me?”
There was obvious expectation and excitement in his tone.
She put her face in his arms. Then, she struggled to lift her head and looked at him deeply, “Hudson, so what even if it's what you said?”
There was once she loved without hesitation and caring much about anything, she loved without dignity, her love was so weak and humble. That was why she would fall into eternal disaster.
A wry smile appeared on her face, “We can’t be together anymore! You know it, I really can't stand the pain. Hudson Ball, we can't be back anymore. You should not kill me, I am now only having half of my life!” She sighed deeply and told him seriously when meeting his eyes, “Let me go, let me be free. I promise that I will find a man who loves me and spend my whole life together with him when I forget these hurts in the future. That man may not be loved by me but he must love me wholeheartedly. He can be any man but not you!”
She looked at Hudson, his eyebrows were twisted together tightly and his eyes were full of affection, excitement, even pain, fanaticism, and even a little panic.
“But Winnie, I can't live without you...” He was panicked by what she said. He didn't want their relationship to be over, he didn't want it.
Before she could react, his lips pressed down again. He forced his lips to press hers tightly. She didn't expect him to do so even after she talked so much. He still wouldn't give up. In a moment of surprise, his tongue had already rushed in, he used so much strength to plunder all the air in her chest.
His kiss warmed up Winnie’s blood inexplicably like a gust of wind. She couldn't help but shudder at the moment when their lips and teeth were close to each other.
Her heart was beating violently and she seemed to lose the ability to think.
He seemed very satisfied with her reaction. His whole person was almost crazy due to her trembling.
No one knew how long the kiss did last until his lips left hers and moved to her ears, nibbling gently there. A curse-like voice overflowed from his mouth, “Winnie, I really can't live without you...”
Her tears flowed out uncontrollably, “It’s over!”
She told herself again and again that Hudson had disappeared from her life. He had no right to disturb her peaceful life anymore.
They looked at each other. Her determination made the helplessness and pain in his eyes get deeper and deeper.
He knew that she must have hated him if they have sex and he really couldn't hurt her anymore, she said she had only left half of her life.
“What can I do to not hurt you?” he asked in loneliness.
“Let me go!”
Hudson’s eyes flashed with a complicated expression. There was also an emotion that she couldn't understand spreading in his eyes. She looked at him stubbornly.
“Alright! Go and rest. I promise that I will not touch you. I'll take you back at dawn!” He seemed to be repressing something. He lit a cigarette and took a deep puff of it. His voice was slightly hoarse, “Are you hungry?”
At that moment, she saw the loneliness and sadness flashing in his eyes. She had no idea why but her heart just hurt sharply out of the blue.
The phone was returned to her, her wallet and documents were also given back to her.
When Winnie turned it on, a call came in immediately. She answered the call and saw that it was Rio's call. It must be a matter of work. She glanced at Hudson. His expression was a little stiff and his face was getting bright and dark.
She answered the phone and said, “Rio!”
She whispered Rio's name and glanced at Hudson again. She found that his body seemed to be taut but soon, he turned and walked to the French window. He was standing there and looking at the light from houses outside the window. His eyebrows just couldn't be relaxed.
Was he wrong?
He had made a terrible mistake so he must be punished. He laughed at himself slightly and took a puff of smoke.
She was just right. There was a matter about work. There were several companies which approached her in the afternoon but couldn't get through her call, “Winnie, are you okay?”
“I will go back tomorrow morning, I am sorry!" She apologized.
“It's okay, if you can't get away with your personal affairs, you don't need to come tomorrow!” Rio said again.
“Thank you, I'm fine. I will go to work tomorrow! Well, alright, good night!”
Winnie hung up the phone but she dared not to sleep.
He seemed to mention her restraint and there was a deeper pain in his eyes. After a long silence, he extinguished the cigarette in his hand in the ashtray. His expression was relieved instantly and the room fell into a long silence.
Winnie climbed onto the bed and covered herself with the quilt. However, she was not sleepy.
Hudson was sitting on the sofa with his back facing her.
Neither of them slept that night…
After daybreak, she took the bag and left quietly when he went to the bathroom to take a shower. She didn't know how to face the long silence on the way back and she needed to leave now.
If she couldn’t go back at the time, she might not be able to go back again!
After Hudson walked out, he found that Winnie and her bag were missing. Did she go back by herself? How could he relieve and let her go back by herself in such a long way? He then put on his clothes immediately and walked out despite the dripping water on his head. He didn't have much time to check out the room. Then, he saw her who was in the taxi when he ran out of the elevator.
He found his car immediately and drove to chase after her.
She was brought by him so even if they really couldn’t get together, he still had the responsibility to send her back safely. She left so early without having breakfast, did she just can’t wait to meet Rio?
However, for now, he had only blessings and a touch of bitterness for Winnie.
After chasing her out, he looked at the car in front and called her.
She was taken aback. She was holding the phone but not answering it.
He called her again.
Her phone kept ringing and the driver reminded her kindly, “Miss, your call!”
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the writing is quite childish, but maybe it's just the translations...