Alpha alec's redemption (Sadie) novel Chapter 184

When I got out and started changing, I didn’t know that I would be giving Sadie a strip show. Not that I am complaining anyway.

I turned when I felt eyes on me. That’s when my eyes landed on her form, standing by the window. She didn’t flinch or move when I turned, even though I was stark naked in front of her.

I admit that I sometimes expect her to behave like her old self. She didn't, though. Instead of turning around and hiding, she kept her eyes on me. I know that she wasn’t looking at me in a sexual manner, but I couldn’t help but feel like her gaze was like a smooth touch that lit a fire on me.

“You have to do something, Alec, especially given that the full moon is in two weeks.”

Yes, the full moon. The day when my mate's heat scent will drive me and my wolf crazy.

“We are idiots, you know that?” Knox mumbles, his eyes staring lazily at me.

“Why do you say that?”

“We never thought about it back then,” he answers. “During the full moon, we never really felt any strong pull towards Lola like most people said we would when we met our mate, and she went into heat.”

It’s true. We did scent her heat, but it didn’t do much. The desire to bend her over was there, but it wasn’t all consuming like I was supposedly supposed to be.

For Alpha’s, that need should be stronger, deeper. I shouldn’t have been able to resist her. I’ve never heard of any alpha who was able to resist his mate and Luna during their heat.

It should have been a clue that something wasn’t right, and for a moment we did feel it, but we chose to ignore it. Otherwise, what kind of mate would I be if I doubted my mate and our bond, even though I felt the connection? Hell, everything we were taught would happen when you meet your mate, happened. I felt like I was betraying the goddess and our bond by doubting things. Instead of looking into it, I decided to ignore it and push it to the back of our minds.

I should have listened to my gut, but I was just too happy to have found my mate and my pack’s salvation that I chose not to dwell too much into things.

“Yeah, we were complete fools,” I mumble, raking my fingers through my hair.