Caged Between the beta and alpha novel Chapter 94

It terrified me knowing that deep down he felt like he wouldn’t make it .

I saw him fighting .

Even at night , he’d wake up and hold me tight , his heart thundering as the darkness surged .

I felt him weaken as he repeatedly hurt himself to contain the threat he may become .

The emotions in his kiss terrified me .

It told me how much he loved me , how much he wanted to be with me , yet the fear that he’ll lose me ….

” So … tell me , what colour I should wear tomorrow ?

” I asked , looking up into those gorgeous cerulean eyes that I loved as a new song began playing .

” Hmm ….

I actually have something for you .

” He said smiling softly His eyes sparkled as he caressed my cheek before cupping my chin .

” I hope you like it ” ” Ooo an outfit … I do like it ! Even if I haven’t seen it ! ” I said kissing his thumb that was rubbing my bottom lip He smiled in amusement before his gaze fell to my lips as he licked his own lush ones .

I wrapped my mouth around his thumb , taking it fully into my mouth , letting my tongue stroke it as I sucked on i t for a moment , my eyes watching him seductively , my core throbbing with a need only he could satiate .

” Fuck love .

” He growled huskily , pulling me close and kissing me hard .

This was the life .

LIAM It was much later , everyone had eaten and drunk a lot .

I had gone easy on the drinks , having two and that’s it .

With the darkness looking for any chance to seep out , I needed to be in my right fucking mind .

We were seated at a table ; Zack , Taylor , Damon , Raven and I playing spin the bottle .

A game that Taylor insisted we play .

” Ok ok , how old were you Zack when you lost your virginity ? ” Taylor asked , smiling goofily .

” Thirteen .

” Zack said , making Taylor pout .

” That’s early ! ” ” You asked , babe .

” Zack replied , kissing him hard .

Taylor pulled him close , although there wasn’t much space left between them .

The rest of us exchanged looks as Raven giggled , watching them .

” How old are you ? ” I asked her , standing u p .

Her reply was only to whistle and giggle again .

Damon chuckled .

” Go home , guys .

” He teased .

The three of us went over to the side .

The party was still going strong , and I knew it would continue for another few hours .

” Aunty seems happier lately .

” Raven said , looking over at Monica , who was now sitting with Mom and Dad as Mom hugged her .

” Yeah , I think having more people around her has really helped . ” Damon said guiltily .

I knew he was probably feeling awful that he had to leave her often .

” You have work , don’t feel bad , no one realised we could have done more … I’m sure we can make sure Aunty always has someone around her .

” I said , frowning thoughtfully .

” She’s aware that Dad isn’t here … But she’s coping .

, ” Damon whispered , his eyes on his mother .

” Yeah , losing a mate isn’t easy .

” Raven said quietly .

All eyes were on Aunty Monica , but I won’t deny that we were all thinking of our own situation … I realised Damon only had his mother … and Raven … she only had us … Her family was gone .

” Ooo they are cutting the cake ! ” I smiled , watching her .

Dad had cut the cake and Mom had fed him a piece a while ago , but it hadn’t been cut up for the rest until now .

Trust Raven to want some , but i n the process , she left me and Damon alone with that mate comment hanging in the air … I decided to ask him the question that was on my mind .

” Why didn’t you tell me you two had rejected each other ? I swear I didn’t know , or I wouldn’t have said- ”

” I know you didn’t .

You’re not a sly ” person , Liam .

You’re straight up .

I knew you didn’t know and Raven confirmed that .

We did what was best , for all of us … ” He said quietly , looking up at the sky , sighing deeply .

It ” It takes a lot .

Thank you .

” I said quietly , looking at him .

” It does , but that’s the difference between us ..

You’re an Alpha and I’m a Beta .

” He smiled despite the pain in his voice , but his words hit home .

” We won’t ever be equal , no matter how much we say it .

” I didn’t say anything , I couldn’t .

I was an Alpha , and it was in my blood to be possessive , but in the process , I had made him feel inferior … That was never the intention .

“

That’s not true Damon , my behaviour does not mean- ‘ ” I love you , Liam , you are my Alpha , but don’t use that line .

We both know we aren’t equal .

” He said quietly , his eyes full of hurt , hurt that he usually masked so well .

” Guys , come here ! ” Raven shouted .

” Come on .

” Damon said , patting my shoulder .

“

Damon .

” He paused , glancing back at me .

” Yeah ? ” ” I may have wanted her all for myself , but never once did I think that I deserved her more than you because my rank was higher than yours .

I’ve always loved her , since I was young , that was all I could think of .

That I loved her first … It was never because I was an Alpha and you weren’t .

” I said quietly .

I needed him to know that .

” Isn’t it the same thing ? ” He asked quietly .

I didn’t reply , unable to .

If anything were to happen to me ….

Maybe they could be together … Maybe that’s why she was given two mates ? I watched him walk off , thinking he’d once said he’d die for me … Didn’t he realise I’d do the same for him too ? ” Liam ? ” Raven said , coming over holding a plate piled high with two , no three , large slices of cake .

” Yes , beautiful .

” I said softly as she caressed my face with her free hand .

” Are you ok ?

” I nodded , ” That’s a lot of cake for one bite – sized she -wolf .

” I teased .

She pouted .

” One was for you .

” She said .

I raised an eyebrow .

” Was it ? Or were you planning on taking y share ? ” I asked .