Clubrooms Diary novel Chapter 41

LAYLA  

May 14th 2018 

"It was you wasn't it?" I stammered.

"What was me, La?" His demeanour suddenly changes as he scowls at me

"You got Ryder to start up that sinful side hustle didn't you?" I trembled with anger. 

"Don't be fucking ridiculous." He scoffed, as his eyes bounced off the walls. 

He looked everywhere else but in my eyes. 

"I have sons of my own." He grounded out. 

"Does Nikki know, Does she know what kind of sick fuck she married and produced kids with?" My words were coated generously with repulsion. 

"I told you once before to keep their names out of your filthy mouth." His hands formed into tight fists.

He was openly losing control in front of me. The more I looked at him the more I believed it was his doing. 

"My mouth may be filthy but you're a sick son of a bitch who needs to rot in hell." I shove him, pounding my hands against his chest, imagining my fists were daggers. 

He wraps his hands around my wrists in a vice-like grip, stilling my movements as he snarls at me bitterly.

"Haven't you heard of the term 'Innocent Until Proven Guilty?" He says in a deathly tone. 

"You mother fucker!" I struggle against him. 

"I've already judged and sentenced you! You're guilty." I break down crying. 

"My Ryder wasn't a sick bastard. He was a gentle soul who had a heart of gold." I whimper, wishing I wasn't such a heartless cow towards my husband that night.

He tried to tell me it wasn't for his pleasure, cryptically telling me it wasn't his idea. I lost everything that weekend, including a piece of my soul when Ryder pulled that trigger. I've been walking around with a heavy heart and bricks for feet. Time seems to roll over slowly, slower than I thought it did just days ago. It's not fair this perverted sicko gets to walk around, living his life like an innocent man.

It's not fair!

"Fuck you, Jimmy, you'll pay. I swear to the mighty gods you'll pay for your sins." I continue to struggle against him, his touch branding my skin with pain that fuels my bitter hate I have towards him.