Ex-wife, Please Come Back novel Chapter 260

At that time, James couldn't show a happy face. Because all these things made him rather feel extremely heavy. If it weren't for his elder brother, he would have jumped into the sea without second thoughts, wanting desperately to end his miserable life at once.

"After she died, I traveled to the seaside at one time. I vaguely recalled whether I was drunk that day. I only knew that the more I thought about it, the angrier I became. And when I finally found myself at the seaside, I started yelling crazily. And I didn't know for how long I had been standing by the sea when a sudden urge hit me making me want to jump down directly."

James sadly reminisced that fateful day. If it weren't for the two strong men who suddenly sprang up out of nowhere, he might have surely died.

"But I had no idea why I was suddenly hit by someone before I passed out. When I regained my consciousness, I was in the hospital. My elder brother was silently sitting in front of my bed. But I will always remember what he said. And it was what motivated me to live until today,"

James continued. He squinted his eyes slightly reflecting that he only admired a few people in his life, and his elder brother was indeed one of them.

"He firmly said that I had died once. And since he saved my life, he now had the right to decide whether I stayed alive or not in the future. And that he wouldn't let me decide on my own. Now it all seemed to me that my brother truly saved me. Although I couldn't help feeling lonely all the time, I could still say that I had a lot of fun in my life."

Eventually, at that exact moment, James felt relieved from the tight-knot feeling gnawing him soon after realizing he didn't have to live life like the way he used to. And this was way much easier than he could surmise. And for this reason, he came to an understanding of what he should do.

He joined his elder brother's company shortly. By then, not a single soul knew how powerful he naturally was. But even so, he earnestly showed a willingness to start from the bottom up, contemplating that what he needed the most in his present circumstances was to change his attitude towards life.

From then on, no matter how excellent and suitable those girls appeared around him and no matter how much they hinted or flirted with him, he just pretended to ignore them. So as time went by, no one dared show any affection towards him.

In his heart and soul, the only one he truly loved was gone. He could no longer open his heart and let himself fall in love again with others.

"Later, I joined the group. And I started from the lowest position, then ascended slowly to the deputy CEO. Sometimes, my brother made fun of me, teasing me that maybe the CEO position should be given to me. But I never had that desire. What I merely planned was to work hard to divert my attention,"

James went on as he laughed at himself, realizing how amusing his late brother was. He considered him such a smart person who knew even these things. So, even if his brother offered him the position, James would probably not accept it.

He had learned a lesson the hard way from his previous experiences, which subsequently led him to have had a change of mind. Now, he no longer gave a damn about the so-called fame and fortune in the world. In the past, James always felt that he couldn't slow down to relax. It was not until his beloved woman's death when a realization suddenly hit him that what he couldn't understand was his heart.

Now that seemingly only a handful of words could easily describe what had happened in decades, a long sigh of relief escaped his lips. But it didn't mean his heart was already healed.

For a day, his heart incessantly beat faster, making him feel uncomfortable until his heart gradually became numb. He came to a point where he no longer knew what pain was and what love was.

"Till now, every time I try to recall what transpired in the past, I always feel like it was a dream. Especially yesterday when my elder brother died, I completely thought it was only a dream. I didn't expect that he would depart before me. I've been wondering over the years about how I would die in the future, but I have never realized it until now."

Death for James was something not to be frightened of during those times. What he was more afraid of was the notion of having someone, who he loved deeply, forget him after his death. He was scared too that he would still be alone after his passing.

It resembled a spell that continuously weighed him down, making him feel he could not escape. If it weren't for his innate willfulness, he wouldn't have been so helpless today.

Now his only elder brother had left them. To a certain extent, James was as sad as Jacob, but he didn't want to express it. If he said it out, it could sound and be construed as a joke.

Certainly, Jacob wouldn't laugh at him just because of this, but others might do so. Besides, kindness, as perceived by many, is not that imperative in the world we live in.

At that time, however, James had a clear understanding of what was going on. So he never brought himself to utter anything about his happiness, anger, or sorrow. No matter how excited or sad he felt at the spur of the moment, he would merely grab hold of these emotions and tuck them in effortlessly into his heart.