Winnie sobbed, and Brian heard the pain in it.
"No, I'm not torturing you. I'm torturing myself."
How could Brian torture her? She was his favorite woman.
"Then I will leave, I will take the children away. You live your happy life. And if we never meet in this life, you will not torture yourself anymore."
Winnie did not understand what Brian meant. He only knew that his actions to her were like a rusty blunt knife, which could not kill her at once, but it made her shudder with pain.
"No you can't go, never leave my world. My soul is gone without you."
If she left, he would become a walking dead, his world would have no luster, and his life became meaningless.
"Well, what do you want? You want to see me in pain to make you happy?"
Winnie tried to hold back all her emotions so as not to burst out and wake the two children.
"I'm not happy, I haven't been happy since you left me, only with you..."
"Brian, please don't say any more. Don't sway my heart. I don't even know now which of your statements is true and which is not."
Winnie took a deep breath. Her breathing trembled because of crying.
At this moment, she was both sad and angry. She wanted to scold Brian, to put an end to this ambiguous relationship with him, and to live like a person in front of him.
With this in mind, Winnie did so. She reached out and pulled Brian's sleeve and took him to the secluded cloakroom. When the door of the cloakroom was closed, where the sound insulation was so good that no matter how loudly she talked, she would not disturb the children.
"Say what you want. What do you want me to do to make you happy?"
Winnie finally magnified the volume, finally she could shout angrily at him.
But when she looked into his painful eyes, her heart went astray again.
There was no dislike for her in his eyes, no hate for her. She was not sure if it was care, at least it didn't hurt that much.
“Be my woman, as before. Winwin......"
"Impossible, I can't do it. Kill me rather than make me your woman."
Winnie gave her answer straightforwardly.
The previous life made her miserable and put her in deep danger. She was not afraid of death, but she could not be selfish just to be with him without caring about the form of being together and the feelings of her children and family.
"You hate me that much?"
Brian said more painfully. He knew his request was too selfish and that it was unfair to Winnie, but he just wanted to be with her.
"I don't hate you, I like you, I love you. Listen, Brian, I love you."
Winnie cried loudly. She failed to control her heart and told him she loved him. Although this love would be laughed at, would be ignored, she really hoped that Brian could let go of her for the sake of her love. She just wanted a plain life.
Brian was shocked that Winnie loved him. She had said that she did not love him. So it was false, otherwise Winnie would not be so painful.
"But because I love you, I want to have dignity, I don’t want you to see me with contempt."
"Brian, I don't know when I fell in love with you, but I have decided to forget you, just because it is impossible between us. So I'm begging you, don't do that to me and let my world be calm."
Winnie cried bitterly and miserably. Now she had no dignity in front of Brian. Would she ignore her love, would he trample on her love?
Never mind, she had been living in a bad life. Even if Brian trampled on her love, there was nothing to be afraid of.
Winnie was crying all the time, but she didn't hear any response from Brian. Maybe her love caused him trouble.
Winnie wiped away tears, pretending to be strong.
"I love you, but it won't affect you, it won't bother you, you can completely ignore what I said. For the sake of our past relationship, and for the sake of our children, stop treating me like a puppet."
Winnie said and turned to leave, but Brian tightly embraced her.
"No, I never thought of you as a puppet. I had never been afraid of your influence on my life. I had never despised you or hated you."
On the contrary, he also loved her. He could not extricate himself or give up.
"Winwin, whatever I said before, don't take it to heart. It's not what I really mean. I am not rational enough. Because I am jealousy, I said so many words to hurt you. I won’t do it again."
"Thank you for your love and I will cherish your love forever."
Brian was moved, because Winnie loved him.
In the end, he did not express his love like Winnie, and finally let Winnie disappointed.
Winnie did not want to hear that. The only thing she wanted to hear was that he loved her too. However, Brian only said thank you, she had no other feelings except disappointment.
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