CHAPTER 22
JESS
Ugh, I was hiding in the kitchen for what felt like an eternity, trying to avoid the awkwardness that had taken over the pool. party. Josh and Laura were making out like there was no tomorrow, and it was seriously pissing me off.
I knew I needed to get used to it, but it still made my stomach turn. I stuffed my face with chips, trying to distract myself from the icky feeling growing inside me.
But it was hard to ignore the fact that I was Laura once- not the dating my brother part, but part of the friendship group.
I glared out the window, feeling like an outsider looking in. Why did everything have to change so fast? Why did everyone have to move on without me? I shoved more chips in my face. I needed to go out there; otherwise, Sam would come looking for
I just couldn’t face Laura and Josh’s PDA–fest. I stayed in the kitchen for a few more minutes, reading the label of the dishwashing detergent.
Josh walked into the kitchen, dripping wet and towel–less. His hair was plastered to his forehead. “Hey, Jess. Plan on sharing?” he whined, eyeing the bowl of chips from me.
I didn’t bother responding. What was there to say?
He snatched the bowl and headed back out, but not before
stopping in his tracks. “What’s your problem anyway?” he asked, his tone suddenly serious.
My anger snapped like a rubber band. “Are you kidding me?” I shouted, my voice echoing off the kitchen walls. “This is my best friend we’re talking about! Don’t you get it? You scared off a good guy and left me with that…that…monster!” My hands shook as I gestured wildly at Laura outside.
His expression faltered for a moment before he frowned. “Jess, calm down-”
“No, you calm down!” I snapped. “You’re the one who ruined dating for me. No boy in school would look at me, much less date me. I felt like the world’s biggest loser. Like I was nothing to look at! Which was all you and Luke, by the way? I know it was. Now you decide to just go for Laura? Do you see how messed up that is?” The words poured out of me like acid, but I tried to keep my voice down. I didn’t want to hurt Laura.
Alex’s eyes widened in shock. “Jess, that’s not fair. I was just trying to make sure you were safe from…”
“Safe? Well, that turned out well, didn’t it? You’re my brother, for crying out loud! You’re supposed to have my back, not screw me over!” I felt tears pricking at the corners of my eyes, but I refused to let them fall.
Josh took a step back, his face pale. “Jess, stop. Please.”
I knew I was making a scene but couldn’t help it. The words just poured out of me like a dam had burst. I sucked in the air, trying to calm myself down, and suddenly Josh stepped forward, pulling me into a hug.
Josh looked at me with a sheepish expression. “You have no idea how guilty I felt… feel. I feel like a fucking asshole. I know I messed up.” I waved Josh off. I didn’t want to talk about it.
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