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I sat next to Laura in the hard plastic chairs just outside international arrivals, the kind that made your back ache after five minutes and your patience dwindle even faster. The sliding glass doors in front of us remained stubbornly closed, with no one walking out for the last ten minutes. My mom had called at least a dozen times already, her voice filled with a mix of excitement and anxiety every time I picked up.
“Nothing yet,” I’d told her over and over. It didn’t stop her from calling again.
Laura sat beside me, her knee bouncing like she was trying to launch herself into orbit. Her teeth worried the edge of her nail. I rested my hand on my stomach, feeling the baby kick visibly through her shirt. There was a tiny ripple in my stomach that felt more like a butterfly.
Laura shot me a look. “What if they don’t remember?” Her voice was small, barely audible over the hum of the airport.
I frowned, caught off guard. “Why wouldn’t they remember?”
Laura turned to face me fully, her brows furrowed. “Jess, look how fast you lost your memory from one little bump.” She gestured vaguely, her nail pointing at nothing in particular.
I wanted to laugh it off, to tell her she was being ridiculous. But she wasn’t wrong. I had lost my memories after a single fall
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down the stairs. Entire chunks of my life had vanished.
“That was different,” I said softly, not entirely sure I believed it myself.
She didn’t answer, her gaze fixed on the sliding doors. Her shoulders tensed as if bracing for something–or nothing. I followed her gaze, willing them to open, willing someone familiar to step through.
Laura broke the silence again, her voice trembling now. “Jess, they fell thirty thousand feet. Thirty thousand. You don’t just walk away from that… At least, I don’t think you do. What if— what if-”
“Stop,” I said sharply, grabbing her hand and squeezing it tightly. Her fingers were cold, and her nails bit into my palm. “Stop imagining the worst. They’re fine. They’ll remember us.”
I said the words firmly, like I believed them, but deep down, uncertainty gnawed at me. They were the kind of words you said to keep someone else calm, not because you knew them to be true.
Laura sniffled, her other hand rubbing over her belly in slow, soothing circles. “But what if they don’t? What if they come out of those doors, and they’re–different?”
“They won’t be.” My voice cracked, betraying me.
Laura’s head snapped toward me, her eyes wide and glistening. “You don’t know that.”
could have prepared us for the possibility that things might not go back to the way they were. What if they were
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