Life After the Storm novel Chapter 31

I continue to walk up to Jayden to talk to him about last night, "Hey buddy, I'm sorry for just taking off."

But when I speak, it's like I have no words. He acted like he didn't hear me and just walked to Landon. "Daddy, can we please go home now."?

I'm confused as to why he is treating me like this. I have done nothing but be nice to him, but instead he is now acting like I don't exist. I want to chase after him. But I will not beg to be loved. As I held my tears back, Dean approached me. "Lilly, is there something that you need?"

"Why are you not helping me with my abilities? You said that you would begin my training, but you have done nothing?"

"I was waiting for you to become a member of the pack, so you would have a bond with a pack."

"As you can tell, I'm not wanted here, to be honest, I'm not wanted anywhere."

"Lilly, I wouldn't be so sure that you are not wanted here. I know that you are, and that you are even loved here."

"Landon hates me and now Jayden." 

"Jayden does not hate you, he is a 5-year-old boy that is still grieving the loss of his mother. You come along and you're making him face it. He was able to be with her by hurting himself, but promising you not to hurt himself is making him face it that she really is gone,"

"Lilly, you ran out on him last night no matter what it was for it hurt him reminding how easy it is for people to just despair."

I run outside to catch up to Jayden and pick him up from behind and hug him. "I'm sorry about yesterday, but I need you to know something. I'm not going to just disappear, I promise you Jayden, I love you."

I go to put him down,, but his tiny arms try to wrap around me, and he is holding on to me for dear life. So, I just hold him and allow him to decide when he is ready to let go. "Lilly, I know you didn't do anything wrong, I just wanted to be with you so much and got so sad when you left then I just became so mad at you."

"Buddy, is there any way you could forgive me?"

"Yes Lilly, I'm sorry for being mean to you."

"All is forgiven, let's do something fun to forget all about this."