Life After the Storm novel Chapter 33

IVAN'S POV

As I am leaving the woods from my encounter with Lily. I am in shock, wondering how the hell she survived that fall. All this time I was calling her weak, but I was so wrong. I hate myself even more now for treating her the way I did. Remembering When I touched her skin it felt like a delicate flower, so soft. I tried to snap out of my thoughts of thinking of her, it's distracting me as I am tripping over branches that are on the ground. Realizing that I have made the biggest mistake Underestimating my own mate.

I shift into my wolf and take off to the pack house. I need a distraction. From thinking of her it's making me crazy and craving more of her, I want to respect her and let her be free. Even though I'm not going to be able to let her free for long. I am hoping now more than ever that Jenny finds a way out of this marriage.

Not really sure how she is going to do it, but I'm looking forward to it. If she can get out of it, then I will be able to be happy with my mate. I know that I will have a lot to make up for gaining her trust, knowing it will be all worth it in the end. She will be mine eventually, it just takes time, but am I going to be able to wait to get the satisfaction that she gives me for long.

Now that my wolf knows that she is alive, I can feel his power coming back to me more. Not that I was weak before, but now I feel invincible. I know that he wants his mate, I do too, but I messed that up. I will get her back no matter what. I just have to figure out how. I can feel my body ache for her, wanting to be close to her. I have never felt this for anybody that I have ever encountered.

I always thought that this whole mate thing was bullshit, that it was all an act. Now I realize that I was the one who was full of shit somehow I hid my feelings for her so deep inside me, I made them non-existing. What a fool I am Realizing now that power is not worth losing your mate. 

As nighttime is coming, I reach the pack house and go straight to my room. I don't want to shower, I crave her scent to be near me. As it sends chills up my spine and arousal takes over. I want to be satisfied, but knowing there is no wolf here that could satisfy me like her.

As I lay in my bed trying to fall asleep but all I keep replying in my mind is fucking her. Loving how she just took what she wanted and fucked me hard. Knowing if she was here, I would make her do it again. As my cock gets hard, I begin to stroke it, thinking of her perfect breast as I sucked on her nipples making them hard. Imagining that my hand is her hand that is stroking my hard, throbbing cock. Not being able to stop, I felt my warm liquid on my hand, wishing instead it was on her face, as she liked her lips.

I get up to clean myself, knowing there is no use of trying to sleep. So, I go to my office to work on some of my leftover work I had lifted from the other day. God, she is so distracting why can't I just forget about her As hours pass I see that it is morning.  I can't take any more of her, distracting me so I decide to go for a run to try to clear my head.

As I am running in the woods I hear an odd noise that almost sounds like a cry coming from a baby. I stop to try to make it out, the sound wondering why there would be a baby this far in the woods. As I get closer to the noise, I shift into my human, not wanting to scare the child with my wolf. Then all of a sudden, I feel a sharp pinch in the back of my neck as I fall to the ground. I try to move, but I can't, It's almost like I am paralyzed. I continue to try to move, but there is no use.

I fall to the ground, not being able to move a muscle. I start to feel something I have never felt, then I realize its fear. Not being able to help myself, fear overcomes me. I can't even let out a howl of desperation for help. I hear a woman's voice, knowing who she was but not being able to put my finger on it.