Life After the Storm novel Chapter 49

I don't waste time feeling sorry for myself any longer. I will allow no one to continue hurting me. I'm finished being this weak person who I created through all my grief. Falling for those that have hurt me, thinking I deserve all the misery because of what has happened to my family.

I have found satisfaction in my own misery, but I need to stop punishing myself. All that has happened has made me seem weak. I am done with all those who have brought me pain. I will no longer allow myself to feel anything for them any longer. They are my enemy, not my friend. I will make them pay for all they have done to me.

Realizing now that I'm going to always miss my family and wish they were here with me. But knowing no matter how hard I wish for them to be here. They are not coming back, they are dead. They want me to excel in my life and be happy. Even though I find it impossible to be happy without them. I am going to have to find a way.

As I am waking up, I know that my body is not fully healed yet because I can't move. As I look around the room, I am surprised when I see Landon. Knowing that he is not supposed to be around me, he's forbidden to visit me. I become angry as he looks at me, I stare at him, I ask him “what the hell are you doing here Landon you shouldn't be here.”

“Lilly I'm sorry for everything I was trying to just do what was right, I didn't want to sacrifice you. I just wanted to protect my people.”

I laugh at him, “protecting your people, so you sacrifice one of them. I followed you, but you just disappointed me and handed me over to my worst fear. You know better than Ivan, you are the same. Get the fuck out of my room and do me a favor, don't ever come back to see me.”

As he tries to talk, I stop him. “I don't want to talk to you, Landon, get out.”

I can see the pain in his eyes as he's walking away from me. He should endure pain. I wish he could feel the same pain that Ivan made me feel. As he ripped a part of me out of my body. They both deserve pain, and they will get the pain they truly deserve from me. I will not kill them, but I will make them pay for all they have done.

As my body feels like it's finally up to par, almost like the anger that I lashed out on Landon helped me heal the rest of the way. I get up from the bed as I hear the bed alarm go off, I take it and I rip it out the wall. As I walk over to my door, I lock it To make sure they can't get in, I tear off the knob to make it impossible to open.

I am curious where all this strength has come. Then I hear a familiar voice “Lilly You had the strength all along. It was just us fighting for once and believing in yourself is how we brought it out.”

“Oh star, I'm so sorry that we have been through so much, I'm hoping that someday we can be happy.”

“I do too Lilly, I know we will be okay, it's just figuring our place in this world.”

“Our place is not being controlled by these alphas, they have now lost what control they had over me, it is time that we show them who they truly are dealing with.”

“Lilly just don't kill them, I don't want to be a killer.”

I am just going to make him think that I love him and then rip his fucking heart out I want to make him feel all the pain he made me feel.  At least until Sam and I can come up with an escape from this pack and never look back. I'm hoping that Sam still wants to escape with me, he is the only person who cared when I had no one. Well, I guess I still have know one. But at least now I have an objective.

As the door flies open and an angry Alpha comes through the door, I smile in satisfaction that I pissed Ivan off. “What the fuck Lilly walking the halls naked for all to see you.”

“Like it really matters Ivan, they all know I'm yours, all right. God, the entire pack knows that I'm you crazy mate, right.”

“Lilly, it does matter you need to fall in line or you're going to have to be punished just like any other pack member would be punished for not following their Alpha.”

“Punished really you think this isn't punishment enough, Ivan, having to be your mate.”

I then feel a sharp pain across my face as he slaps me, I try not to React not wanting him to know that it hurts. I may heal,, but I still feel pain just like any other wolf. He then throws my clothes on to the bed, “get dressed now you're coming with me.”