Life After the Storm novel Chapter 73

As I am looking around the room, I am surprised to see Landon by my bedside, holding my hand. What the fuck is this all that he has done? He thinks he can touch me. I pull my arm out from underneath him, I watch as he jumps awake. “Oh my God Lilly you're awake.”

He goes to hug me, but I shout out to him “don't you dare touch me.”

As I'm looking at him, I can see the disappointment on his face. I'm trying to ignore it. I am so sick and tired of everyone causing me pain. I am taking charge of myself and not allowing it to happen ever again. I feel bad that his mate betrayed him, but that is not my problem. My issue right now is protecting Jayden and taking over the werewolves oh and finding out who killed my family, so I can make them suffer for what did.

“Lilly, please, I'm sorry for all that has happened. I know that it will take a lot for you to forgive me, but please find it in your heart.”

“Are you fucking kidding me, Landon? You think that you deserve my forgiveness? I don't owe you anything. Forgiving you is like me saying everything that you did to me was ok. You used me by making me love you. You are just like your mate.”

“Lilly, I know what I did was wrong, but you don't need to bring my mate into this. She's dead, and she can't defend herself.”

I want to tell him the truth about his mate. I want to hurt him, but I can't. I want to be heartless, but it's not me. I struggle because I still love him, but I won't dare let him see it. I will never let him hurt me again the way he did. I am tired of falling for all their tricks. I can't do this anymore.

I look at him. “How well do we know anybody in this world, Landon? I thought I knew you, but it turned out I was wrong about you. What is real and what isn't I'm not even sure if I know anymore.”

“Lilly, I'm not asking you to forgive me today, not even next week. I just want a chance to earn your forgiveness. I promise you from this day on I will never betray you ever again.”

I can see the desperation in his face. I just want to put my arms around him and squeeze him as tight as I can. I am not a resentful person, but I want to be I'm so tired of getting hurt. I want to tell him that everything would be OK, that we will work this out. I can't this time. I don't want it to be so easy for him thinking that he can do whatever he wants, and I will just forgive him.

“Landon, I don't want to talk about us any longer. We have a lot more to worry about, don't you think?”

“Yes Lilly but my only concern is you.”

How could he say that his only concern is me when he fed me to the wolves, the devil himself? That makes me so angry my whole body turns hot. I want to scream on the top of my lungs. His words just shoot right through me and all I feel is anger. His concern is about me for giving him one. It should be about how we are going to save everyone.

“Landon, I'm not ready to forgive you. I don't know what you want me to say. I shall not be your concern. I don't need you. I can take care of myself. Right now, our concern should only be for those that will need us the most. Instead of them coming after us, we are going to go after them and take over the werewolves.”

“Wait what Lilly we should not go after them, they are too strong of a. pack they will kill all of us.”

“Landon, we have no other choice. If we do not try to defeat them, we will never be free, and eventually, they will capture us and take what they want.”

“You don't know that we need to protect ourselves and just keep running. They will never find us then.”

“Quit being a coward. We need to save everybody, not just. Ourselves, you are selfish wolf that only cares about himself.”

“Lilly, how dare.”

I cut him off before he even finishes his sentence. I'm so angry at him, I shout “How dare I what I'm so sick and tired of you."?