Life After the Storm novel Chapter 75

We have been training for days. It seems like we have been working ourselves to the bone. I can't help but to watch Landon as he is helping train others to protect themselves. I watch as he moves in all direction's, god he looks so fucking good. I began remembering his taste on how yummy he is.

God, what it would be like feeling his hands on my body. I miss his touch. I hate that he makes me feel something that no one else can, even my mate. Not like I really know what true love feels like, I guess. Then again, I know that I shared true love with my family. But the love that you share with your partner is different, that is the one I have never experienced. But what I do know is that Landon's touch was memorizing. I think that's why I fail in love with him so easily.

I really wish things were different, that he didn't betray me. Now all I feel is hatred and wanting revenge. I'm trying not to be that kind of person, but it's hard. He allowed Ivan to kill my baby. How can I forgive him? He set me up with the devil himself.

As I see Landon, he looks back at me noticing I'm staring at him, I hurry and turn away. I hate that he saw me. I hear footsteps as I turn and I see him. I'm not sure what to say to him. There is so much I want to say, but I just can't. What kind of person would that make me, forgiving him for doing the unimaginable?

'Hey Lilly, are you enjoying watching me?”

He smirks at me. I know he is flirting. A part of me likes it, but the other part of me sets on fire. “No, I wasn't watching you. I was watching those that you are training to see how their progress is coming along.”

His face frowns with disappointment. “Oh, they're getting better. They were already pretty good when I started, but I was able to show a couple of pointers on how to defend themselves in different positions.”

“Good, I'm happy it's coming along, do you think that we have a chance of defeating them?”

“I guess it all just depends on if we are prepared when we are attacked. I have been noticing that they are normally attacking when the packs are at their weakest point.”

“Wait, how would they know when other packs are at their weakest point? I wonder if there is a link, maybe a spy, that enters the packs to watch and wait until they can be defeated.”

“Lilly, how would we ever figure that out."

“Well, I'm thinking that Dean was the spy in your pack. I heard them call him boss.”

“So you think that there is a trader in this pack.”

“I'm not sure, but it makes sense, doesn't it?”

“If that is true, Lilly, then they already know where we are, and they're just waiting to strike.”