Love You Like I Used To Forget It (Millie Bridge) novel Chapter 201

Chapter 201

Sure enough, Irvin launched into a rant.

“He treated me so well and seemed so genuine! Phillip was my birth father, so tell me, who in the world would think that it was all an act? Who would have known that he was intentionally raising me to be a spoiled brat?” he exclaimed with disbelief.

“Phillip had scarred me psychologically. And because of him, I was no longer the sunny person I once was. I stopped believing that this world was good and became distrustful–suspicious of everyone who treated me kindly.

“I’ve been desperately suppressing all my dark thoughts. All this while I insisted to myself that our meeting and falling in love with each other was real. I constantly convinced myself that your kindness toward me came from the heart.”

Irvin’s volume grew louder as he spoke, to the point where he was now yelling. He was having à meltdown on my doorstep.

“But maybe it was because I tried too hard to suppress them, so they kept coming back stronger. It was like I was trying to contain a forest fire. And when I saw that video of you supposedly drugging Lianne, it was like the wind changed direction.

“She told me you were only with me because you wanted to steal her childhood sweetheart from her. She said you were only doing it to make her miserable. She claimed our meeting and falling in love were all part of your scheme.

Irvin’s eyes were wide and crazy. And when he continued, he sounded borderline hysterical. “It broke me mentally. All the negative feelings I had tried so hard to hold back raged like wildfire. They consumed me. They made me believe you had plotted against me. And I didn’t even think to confront you about it.”

I had been staring wordlessly at Irvin as he raved like a lunatic. He would randomly wave his arms as he spoke.

Suddenly, he grabbed my shoulders and stared me in the eyes. “I thought you were like my father–faking kindness, playing me like a fool. But I should have known better.

“It’s clear to me now that I should have known you genuinely loved me. Yet, I mistakenly believed that you only truly fell in love with me later on.”

I was tense under his firm grip. Given how mentally unstable he seemed, I was worried he would physically hurt

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But then, his grip loosened toward the end, and he lowered his head. And when his shoulders relaxed, I did too, but not completely.

“I realize now that you truly did love me from the start. If you didn’t, you would have grown tired of toying with me much earlier and kicked me to the curb.” Irvin paused and sniffled.

He kept his head bowed, and he didn’t release my shoulders. And while I was thankful that his grip was still gentle, I wished he would finish speaking already so I could continue with my day.

“I… I couldn’t accept the possibility that you didn’t love me from the beginning. I just couldn’t accept that you were pretending, that it was all part of your scheme. I loved you so much, and the more I did, the harder it was for me to accept it. That’s why I–It’s the reason I became who I was…” Irvin trailed off.

It seemed he had finished ranting. Yet, his eyes remained glued to the ground, and he was still sniffling. And to my

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chagrin, he didn’t remove his hands.

It was apparent this regressed version of Irvin couldn’t reconcile himself with the person he had become. He also “couldn’t believe that he had ended up hurting me.

Regardless, there was proof that he had indeed done those things. Thus, he had no choice but to accept that this was his reality.

The only thing Irvin could do now was analyze why he turned out the way he had. Frankly, both versions of himself were still the same person, and he understood himself best. Plus, they still shared the same analytical mindset, regardless.

Irvin had loved me too much and imagined our love as being too beautiful and perfect. He had also been traumatized by Phillip. That was why he couldn’t accept that our love might have been born from a scheme.

I knew he was trying to say he had become like this because of the psychological trauma he had experienced. But even then, so what?

Irvin had doubted me. What was more, he was claiming it was because Phillip had hurt him. So, am I supposed to forgive him for all the harm he had caused me just because he had psychological trauma?

Swatting his hands off my shoulders, I disdainfully said, “I don’t care what you have to say, Irvin. It also doesn’t matter what is the cause of your actions. Either way, there is no chance of me ever being with you anymore.”