The silence was broken by a gentle closing of the door.
Vivian sighed slowly and said, "John, when did you know it?"
She concealed very hard. She felt tired physically and mentally, and she felt guilty to him, she deceived him.
She's mean.
"From the last time we ate together, I felt it. William knows you better than me, doesn't he?" John smiled a little bitterly. At that time, he didn't think of anything. He recalled it carefully now.
He left out something. Vivian did not move her chopsticks when eating.
"I'm sorry, I lied to you. You can scold me or hate me, I won't say anything."
Vivian lowered her head a little.
The burden on her was so heavy that she could hardly breathe. She didn't want to continue to cheat someone who cares about her.
All of a sudden, she felt that the place around her was sinking. A clear and pleasant smell of peppermint came from her side. The man said with helplessness and felt bad for her.
"I'm not angry at all. If you want to say it, I'll be very happy. If you don't want to say it, I won't force you. Anyway, don't doubt that I like you, OK?"
Vivian's back suddenly froze, and her eyes were misty because of John's gentle words. Her hard voice seemed to come from the deepest part of her heart.
"If I said that I have been with William for four years, do you think I am hypocritical?"
Yes, she needed to talk, she needed to unbosom herself, and she needed someone to know her pain, her tears, her repressed soul clamoring for relief.
If John didn't ask, she might be able to bear it. Maybe people are like that. In a moment, someone's words and deeds can easily break the hard wall built up by one's heart for many years.
Although John had been prepared for this, hearing Vivian's affirmative answer, he felt a sudden pain at the tip of his heart, more of it was for her.
"If you think you are hypocritical, then I am taking advantage of the danger of others. I know you can't let him go and still want to stay with you."
Vivian didn't expect that John would answer like this. She was stunned for a few seconds, pretending not to understand, and continued.
"Later, Angie came back. She told me how much she liked William. I was scared. I was afraid that Angie knew that I had been with William, so I broke off with him."
John did not interrupt, but waited for Vivian to say it.
He knew that she needed to tell the secrets of her heart.
Vivian was silent for a while. After calming down the uncontrollable mood again, she said quietly.
"Every escape result is like an old-fashioned plot. Angie is angry when she finds out that I've been with William. Maybe it's the result of my greedy for happiness for a short time."
When John heard the word "happiness" used by Vivian, he understood the importance of William in her heart. No wonder he would feel that she had been refusing him all the time. No matter how hard he tried, he could not enter her heart.
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