Alpha Nicholas novel Chapter 10

“Hmm, no way missy. You’re the only one who thinks that, so don’t drag me into your negative thoughts.” Lexi practically growls causing my head to thump. Ok, so maybe she is right about that but so am I, because he did exactly what I knew he would, exactly what my family has always told me would happen. “Maybe it was just a shock and he needed a moment to gather his thoughts. Maybe he wasn’t expecting to meet his mate tonight and got spooked.” Lexi tries to reassure me but it doesn’t help even knowing that he wouldn’t want me, to have it happen still hurts.

I almost burst out laughing at her words, but thank the Moon Goddess I manage to hold it in. I’m not up for any more beatings tonight. “Who’s Alpha Nicholas? I’ve never met him.” Whoever the guy is I hope he keeps on walking because no one deserves to be saddled with her bitchy self. “Right there!” She points across to the outside of the ball area while once again stamping her feet. I follow her finger and soon feel sick when I notice that the only person leaving that way right now is the man who ran from me, my mate. Wait… my mate is Alpha Nicholas, that can’t be right. “It sure is, baby girl.” Lexi purrs and I swear I feel my blood leave my body. Oh, fuck! Why didn’t she tell me?

My mate is an Alpha? Finding my mate was bad enough but the fact that he’s an Alpha… Fuck im dead! My father will kill me for being such a huge disappointment. He’ll blame me for the poor Alpha being mated to me and beat me, then he’ll beat me again for the shame of an Alpha rejecting me and if im lucky enough to survive that, Blue will no doubt have her turn at beating me because clearly, she wants the man thats already got a mate, and of course, that will be my fault too.

I need to get out of here and fast. Lily and I agreed to leave once the ball was over or at least almost over but I can’t risk it. The Alpha doesn’t want me and thats fine, because I wouldn’t wish myself or my family on him which will make leaving easier but we need to leave sooner than planned before anyone could find out what happened, especially my family.

“I’m sure he’ll be back soon, darling girl.” My dad’s voice is soft and caring when he speaks to Blue but I don’t ever remember hearing him talk to me like that. Of course, over the years I’ve gotten used to it and accepted it but even now after all this time, I still have moments where I find myself wishing for him to speak to me like that. I shake my head reminding myself why wanting that is a big mistake.

Do I really want a man like him to be my hero? A man who can abuse his daughter, can allow his other children to also abuse her? No, I wouldn’t and I dont. I guess finding my mate and then him running from me has stirred up some emotions in me that I don’t need right now. My dad continues to stroke my sister’s ego keeping them distracted enough that I could make a quick exit and search for Lilly. I haven’t seen her yet, but I know she’s already down here as she linked me when she left her room to let me know.

These balls must be incredibly hard for him and yet from what I’ve heard he turns up every year and is always genuinely happy for the couple that finds each other here. He met his mate here over 20 years ago, sadly she died a few years later giving birth to their son, their son also died and from what I’ve heard, Elder Stone almost ended his own life. To go through that much pain and sorrow and still be such a good person… yeah that man is one of a kind. As far as I know, he’s remained on his own since then but I’d like to think that one day he’ll give love a second chance. I can’t imagine his mate would want him to be alone for the rest of his life.

I take another step closer and I swear his scent instantly gets ten times stronger then suddenly my whole body starts to tingle, it’s so intense that a gasp leaves my mouth as his broad back comes into view. He turns around to face me and our eyes lock for a moment, the look in his eyes telling me that he doesn’t want to see me then he turns around and starts talking to Elder Stone as if I’m invisible and this time I run. I’m in pain physically and emotionally but somehow I manage to run and not look back at what could be but never will be.