Alpha Nicholas novel Chapter 73

Bonnie

After I left the shed and left my entire family behind to die Will took me to the lounge room in the pack house where Lily, Sophie, Rosie, and Lottie were all sitting around and talking. There are several guards outside of the room and I understand why. These men are protective of their mates and they needed to know that their mates would be safe while they were busy with their ‘guests’. As soon as Will knew that! was ok he said his goodbyes and headed back to the shed. I know that he was eager to get back to those assholes and not miss anything so l made sure not to keep him any longer than necessary.

For a little while, ljust sat there thinking over everything. I saw my entire family tied up and didn’t feel anything. I knew that they were going to die painfully and I didn’t feel anything. I saw my entire family for the last time and I didn’t feel anything, not any of the emotions that I should have anyway. No anger, no sadness, nothing.

If I had to pick a word to describe how I was feeling I would say relieved and that’s a hard pill to swallow because I feel like I should feel like a bad person for feeling that way, for knowing that all of my family will die at any second and all that I feel is relief but I don’t feel bad about it, not’even a little.

Time seems to drag while we sit around and wait to hear any news. The other ladies manage to keep up a conversation but I can’t. I nod and answer any questions they ask but I can’t tell you half of what they are talking about. My mind is on Nicholas and what’s happening right now.

At some point, Lily leaves the room but again I dont even ask any questions. I just feel numb, lost and more than ready to have this all done with.

My mind briefly wonders to Lottie and how incredibly well she handled confronting her mother. I was worried that as soon as she was away from that bitch that she would break down but so far there’s beennothing. Nothing that we have heard about anyway. Of course, it could happen at any time and if it does then she has a sea of people all standing behind her ready to hold her up and get her through it, but right now she seems perfectly fine, from what the girls have said she seems somewhat tighter even. Maybe she needed to confront her more than I thought. Maybe it won’t be a hard hit for her. Maybe just maybe, it was exactly what she needed.

Lily soon returns but doesn’t say a word about where she has been and I can’t help but feel like something has happened I decide not to question her in front of the others in case it’s personal but I will be asking her later. I’m not sure how long we’ve been in this room but it feels like hours and I can’t just sit around anymore. “I’m going to go for a walk. I’ll see you ladies later.”

“Do you want me to come with you?” Lily asks seeming worried but she doesn’t need to be. “I’m fine, Lil but thank you for the offer. I’m just going to take a walk while I wait for Nicky. I’ll speak to you later.” She nods while smiling before going back to talking to the others. As I shut the door behind me I turn and walk into a wall of muscle.

“You ok, Bon?” I look up to find Tony staring down at me looking worried. If he’s here then that means that they must be finished so where is Nick? As if he can read my mind he answers me before l even have a chance to say anything. “He’s fine. I imagine he’s gone for a shower before coming to find you, but I promise he is fine.”

Relief washes through me at his words. I’ve spent so much time thinking about my family dying and the relief I feel that I didn’t allow myself to acknowledge how worried about Nick I was. “Thank you, Tony.

“He smiles as he nods towards the door. “Is Rosie in there?”

“She is.” He nods and then goes to step around me. “Tony.” he turns to face me. “Please, forgive me if I’m speaking out of turn but… well..! know things with Rosie aren’t the easiest. How she’s come to be here.

Where she came from. But from the little time that I’ve spent with her, she is a sweetheart and I just……'”You’re worried about her?” I nod. I’m not worried about him physically hurting her, not in the slightest but what if he can’t come to terms with her life before him? She has two little boys out there somewhere in the world that l imagine she wants to find. I know that if it was me I wouldn’t stop untit I found them. “I’m sorry, I know it’s not my place.” | take a step back ready to walk away, embarrassment working its way through my body. I know better than to question anyone and I don’t know where the courage came from but it quickly disappeared

“Bonnie. Thank you.” Huh? My head whips up to look at him. Why is he. thanking me? “Even when you haven’t known Rosie for long, you’re still looking out for her so thank you. We have spoken about her life and I promise you that we are going to be ok. Will things be easy? ! doubt it, but I’m not just walking away. I’m going to do everything | need to for her.”

“Yes, you are right. I have thought that way.” While part of me wants to lie to him and tell him he’s wrong, I won’t lie to him. “And what about now? What do you think about it now? Is there any part of you that still wants to go? Please, Bonnie, tell me the truth.”

“No. No, I don’t want to leave anymore. I want to stay here with you and be your mate. I’m not saying that it will be easy, I still have a lot to work through and I’m scared but I want to stay here. If you’ll still have me that is.” Nerves hit me hard at the realization that he may not want me anymore but the instant smile that covers his face is beaming and instantly erases any doubts that I have.

“You are my mate, Bonnie and I want you here with me always. Yes, there will be hard times but I will be by your side through them all.

Since the first tihe that we mated all I can think about is marking you and making you mine permanently.”

His words make my heart skip a beat. “Then do it.” The words leave my mouth before I can stop them but I don’t regret them. “Do what… mark you?” I nod now smiling just as much as him. “Are you sure, bonnie?

Because once I mark you there’s no going back. No matter what happens you are mine and I’ll be at your side until my last breath.”

“I’m sure.”