Daddy Alpha I’m In Heat (Lily and Connor) novel Chapter 45

~Lily~

“You’re fucking my dad?!”

Fuck my whole body jolted so hard I almost lost my grip on the pole. My stomach dropped straight to hell, my heart hit my ribs like it wanted to tear free, and I couldn’t breathe because Connor was still pressed against me, still inside me, still holding my throat like none of this mattered, like his daughter hadn’t just walked in and seen the filthiest thing I have ever done in my life.

“What the fuck, dude! What the actual fuck!!!” I swear it felt like my ears were bleeding from the force of it. Then the bomb landed. “You fucking bitch!!!”

I wanted to vanish. I wanted to melt into the floor, disappear into smoke, anything but stand hereclinging to a pole while Bella burned holes through me with her eyes.

My fingers were glued to the pole and Connor didn’t move a muscle behind me. His chest pressedharder into my back like he was daring her to say another word, like his cock pulsing inside me wasproof of ownership he wasn’t about to give up.

“Bella..”

“Don’t you dare fucking Bella me!” she shrieked, stepping forward like she was about to rip me off him with her bare hands. “You’re inside my best friend? My best friend, Dad?! Are you fuckinginsane?!”

“Bella, please, it’s not..it is, okay, it is what it looks like, he is inside me, I can’t lie about that, but it’s not just that, it’s not some stupid accident. I wanted this. I wanted him. I wanted it so bad I thought I was going to lose my mind, and now that it’s happening I can’t be sorry, I can’t regret it.

“I know you’re furious, I know you hate me, but you weren’t here, you didn’t see how he looked at me, you didn’t feel it when he touched me. He makes me feel like I’m not invisible, like I’m not just some kid in the background. He makes me feel like I’m fire, Bella. Like I matter. Like I’m alive.”

You’re digging your own grave, my wolf laughed inside my head, pacing in circles with her tail high. Look at you babbling, look at you spilling your guts while she wants to kill you. You’re pathetic, Lily, and you love it. You love that he’s still holding you in front of her, still inside you, still claiming youeven while she screams.

“Shut up,” I hissed under my breath but my mouth didn’t stop, it never does. “I know it’s wrong, I know I’m the worst friend on the planet, but don’t call me a bitch again, Bella, I can’t take it, I swear I’ll break if you do. I don’t want to lose you, but I couldn’t stop myself. I couldn’t stop wanting him. And now I don’t even want to stop.”

Tell her the truth, my wolf sneered. Tell her you like it, tell her you love that she’s watching, tell heryou’d let him take you again even with her standing right here.

“Shut up!” I snapped again, but it came out a sob, and Bella’s eyes narrowed like she thought I wasmocking her. My chest heaved, my throat burned, and I hated myself because even now, even with Bella spitting rage and betrayal, I didn’t want Connor to pull out. I didn’t want him to let me go.

“How long?!” she screamed. “How long have you been fucking my dad?! Tell me right now, Lily,how long!!!”.

My lips parted because of course I was going to answer, even though I had no answer that could save me, and before I could get a word out she shrieked.

“Gosh, you’re fucking naked-both of you are fucking naked-and his hands are on your t**s!”

I wanted to cover myself, I wanted to tear his hands off me, but Connor just squeezed harder like he was proving the point, and my wolf cackled in the back of my mind. She sees you. She sees everything. She sees how much you love it, and you’re going to open your big stupid mouth andadmit it, aren’t you?

“No, Bella, oh my God, I swear..it wasn’t weeks, it wasn’t months, it just-it just happened, it started and I couldn’t stop, I couldn’t breathe, I couldn’t think, I couldn’t do anything but want him. I know how bad this looks, I know I should let go, but I can’t, I can’t even move. And yes his hands are on me, yes I let him, yes I begged him, but please don’t look at me like I’m filth because I can’t undo it, I can’t make it un-happen.”

My wolf snorted, tail lashing. You love it. You love that his hand is still on your t**s while she screams. You love that he isn’t letting you go. You’d stand here forever if it meant he kept youpinned.

“Shut up!”.

“Bella, please, I know you hate me, I know this is the worst thing I could ever do to you, but I swear it’s not just sex, it’s not just him touching me, it’s everything, it’s the way he looks at me, the way he holds me, the way he makes me feel alive, and I know that sounds insane but I can’t take it back.”

Connor’s hand tightened on my throat like he was reminding me who I belonged to, and I moaned before I could stop myself.

Her face crumpled in horror, and I wanted to die, but my wolf laughed so loud in my head it felt like she was echoing in the room with us. Perfect. Let her see. Let her hear. Let her choke on the proofthat you’re his now.

“Dad!” she screamed.

“Why are you not saying anything?! Why are you just standing there?! You’re inside my best friend. and you won’t even open your fucking mouth?” Her eyes flicked to me, wet and blazing at the sametime. “I swear to God I’ll tell Mum about this, I’ll tell her everything, I’ll tell her what you’ve beendoing, I’ll tell her how you’re ruining my life. Do you enjoy it, Lily? Do you enjoy fucking my dad? Talk!

Say something!”

“Get out, Bella.”

Connor’s voice wasn’t even human anymore. It was his wolf. Oh fuck.

Her mouth fell open, her chest heaving, her face red and wet and burning. “What?”

“No. No, you’re not serious. You’re not choosing her. You can’t be serious, Dad.”

But God, he was serious. I felt it in the way his hand tightened around my throat, I swore I’d never breathe normally again. He didn’t flinch. He didn’t hesitate. He didn’t care that his daughter was standing right there, shaking like her world had just ended.

“I said get out,” Connor growled again, slower this time, meaner.

“Because if you stay, you’ll see everything. You’ll see me fuck her again. You’ll see me take her until she’s sobbing my name. And I won’t stop just because you’re watching. I’ll make her scream loud enough for thoughts to break down”

I gasped so hard my lungs burned, shame and fire choking me at the same time. My wolf cackled inside me, rolling on her back, her tail lashing like she wanted Bella to choke on every filthy word. You love it, Lily. You love that he’s saying this. You love that he’s promising to use you again withher right there.

“Dad!”. She was trembling so hard her fists looked ready to break her own skin. “She’s my best friend! She’s my age! And you’re standing there calling her yours while you-while you… Fuck y’all”

“You’re disgusting. You’re both disgusting.” She screamed as she ran to the door, slamming it shut.

Fuck.

I couldn’t breathe because holy shit what just happened? My best friend saw me-no, worse, she saw us. She saw everything. She saw me pinned, naked, shaking, and I couldn’t even cover myself because Connor still hadn’t let me go. His hand was still iron around my throat, his chest was still pressed to my back, like Bella walking out didn’t change a single thing for him.

“Oh my God,” I croaked.

My wolf was rolling on the floor laughing like this was her favorite soap opera. Perfect, Lily. Your best friend hates you, your almost-sister wants to skin you alive, and you’re still trembling because you don’t want him to pull out. Disgusting. Hilarious. Delicious.

“Shut up,” I whispered, but my wolf only purred louder, licking her paw, smug and cruel.

Connor finally moved, but not in the way I expected. He didn’t pull away. He didn’t loosen his grip. He leaned closer, his mouth brushing the shell of my ear, and the low rumble of his wolf made the air vibrate against my skin. “She won’t come between us.”

My knees nearly gave out. My stomach dropped again, like I was on a rollercoaster straight to hell. “Us?” I squeaked, because apparently I had lost all dignity, all vocabulary, all common sense.

“Yes. Us.”

My wolf’s tail shot straight up. Oh, he said it. He actually said it. Claim locked, Lily. Game over.

I wanted to scream at her. I wanted to scream at him. I wanted to scream at myself for not running the second Bella opened that door. Instead I just clung to the stupid pole like it was the last tree on a sinking island and my chest was heaving like I’d just sprinted a marathon.

“She hates me,” I whispered, tears finally stinging my eyes. “She hates me and she’s never going to forgive me.”

Connor’s grip on my throat tightened, not enough to choke, just enough to remind me who l belonged to. “Let her hate you. She’ll learn.”

Learn what? That I was ruined? That I was marked? That I was standing here with my best friend’sfather like the worst betrayal wrapped in sweaty skin?

She’ll learn that you’re his now, my wolf answered for me, smug as ever. And you love it.

“How do you feel, pumpkin?”

The way he said it-God-it was like his voice wrapped around my throat tighter than his hand evercould.

How did I feel? Are you kidding me? I felt ruined. I felt like the ground had just cracked open and swallowed the old me whole, the good girl me, the best-friend-sleepover me, the one who thoughtshe had morals. She was dead. Gone, Buried.

Tell him the truth, Lily, my wolf sang, tail high, eyes wild. Tell him you’re burning. Tell him you love it. Tell him you’d let him split you open again right here, right now, even if Bella was still standing in the doorway screaming.

“I feel great daddy. I don’t care about your fucking divorced wife,” I spat, my voice breaking, my face on fire. “I don’t care about her, I don’t care about anyone..do you hear me? I just…

“Fuck me again, Daddy.”

Oh my God. Oh my actual God. I said it. I said it.

My wolf shrieked with laughter, rolling on her back, kicking her paws in the air like this was the funniest thing she’d ever seen. Game over, Lily. You’re cooked.

“Daddy’s little naughty girl” he whispered huskily as he spanked my ass fuck.