Forsaken by the Moon Goddess novel Chapter 34

Sloane

The next morning, I take on Jack until I decide that he isn’t worth my time since he taps out almost before he hits the ground.

Since Gabriel is still recovering from the distocated knee that Scarlet gave him, it is easy for the two of us to focus on the warriors who really do want to improve.

But after sparring, Scarlet immediately goes into best friend mode, grabbing me and holding me back as the others go inside for breakfast.

“I want the tea, and I want it now. And don’t give me the’ he wants to be boyfriend and girlfriend’ bullshit. I want the truth. What the fuck is going on with the two of you because that boy is claiming the hell out of you, and he’s doing it for everyone to see,” she hisses.

“I don’t know, Scarlet. Honestly, I don’t know. He says he’s here because he wants to be with me. He said he likes me, he likes the way I taste, and the way I smell. I don’t know.

He could be lying.”

She stares at me, blinking without saying a word. I frown.

Scarlet is NEVER quiet.

“What? Why are you looking at me like that?” | ask.

“Hang on,” she says, holding up a finger and lookingbehind her. A few moments later, Daniel comes jogging up.

“Hey baby, what’s up?”

“Tell Daniel what you just told me.”

“Scarlet, he doesn’t care,” I say, totally embarrassed and not happy that my best friend is bringing her mate into our personal conversation.

“Sloane, trust me. Just tell him.”

I huff. “Fine. Scarlet wanted to know what was going on with me and Benedict…”

“Scarlet…” he growls softly.

“She’s my best friend, Daniel. Hush and listen,” she says, not looking away from me.

I roll my eyes. “He says he’s here because he likes me, he likes the way, taste, he likes the way I smell…”

“Oh,” Daniel says, no longer looking annoyed with Scarlet.

“See what I mean?” Scarlet says to him.

“Yeah,” he says slowly, watching me.

“Well, I don’t see what you mean. Could you be a little clearer, Scarlet.”

“Sweetie, do you remember when we came to visit Alpha Waylon, before my birthday, and Daniel showed us around+15 Bonus

the pack lands?”

“Yeah,” I say, frowning.

“He liked the way I smelled too,” she says slowly, watching me carefully.

“like the way you smell, so what?” l ask.

“Sloane,” Scarlet groans, but Daniel cuts her off, wrapping his arm around her and pulling her against him.

“I couldn’t get Scarlet out of my head after that visit, Alpha. Every moment of the day, I’d think of her. I’d swear I’d catch whiffs of her scent and I’d be distracted all day thinking about her. All I wanted was to see her again. But then she went to Alpha Will’s pack, and I thought everything was over until Friday night,” he says.

When I continue to blink at him, he sighs. “Friday night when I realized that she is my mate. She wasn’t eighteen when I saw her before, but I think that I liked her scent because it was the early stages of me recognizing the mate bond,” he says slowly.

*”Grandfather, I need to leave now. Something has come up. I’m sorry. I’ll return next weekend after graduation, but I have to go.”

“Is everything alright?”

“It will be, just, please, can I borrow a car? ‘ll bring it back next weekend.”

“They’re your cars, Sloane, or they will be in a couple of weeks. Take whatever vehicle you want,” he says.

“Thank you.”

I hug him quickly, then grab my bags and head to the garage. I grab the first set of keys on the hook on the wall and push the door unlock button, quickly walking to the truck that beeps. I toss my bag on the passenger seat,open the large garage doors, then pull the truck out.

It isn’t until after I’m well past Benedict’s pack that I finally feel like I can breathe. Whatever he’s thinking, I can’t be part of it. There is no future for me and Benedict.

There is no future for me and anyone. I’m a forsaken woman, a forsaken wolf, punished because of what our mother did to anger the Moon Goddess. I’ve accepted my life. It is who l am and there is nothing I can do about that.-But I won’t let Benedict use me, or, if he’s actually considering it, taking me as a mate. He deserves better than that, better than me.

‘Sloane,’ Aisling whines.

‘No, Aisling. You know I’ve expected to always be alone.

Maybe, after we’re Alphas, you can find someone to mate with in your wolf form. But that’s not the life for me, or us.

We are forsaken. We are being punished, and punished women don’t get to live happily ever after. Our mother’s betrayal will end with us. I refuse to ever even consider having a daughter who may have to suffer the way we have.’

I pull over on the side of the empty road when my emotions get the better of me, lifting my head and letting Aisling howl her pain. Then I collapse over the steering wheel, letting my anger and frustration out. I hate my mother. I hate what she did. I hate that I am forced to suffer because she was a terrible person. I hate that I will have to live my life alone so 1 never have daughters and they will never have to suffer as I have. I hate that my wolfwill never have her fated mate because I can never accept anyone as my mate.

I scream. I scream so loud it echoes in the forest around me.

Then I collapse over the steering wheel again, letting years of anger, hatred, and pain finally come out.