Her Sweetest Mistake (Amelia) novel Chapter 41

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XAVIER’S POV:

I couldn’t stop thinking about her. A few weeks had passed, but it felt like an eternity since I last saw her. Every time I closed my eyes, all I could see was Amanda turning away from me. I knew I messed up big time, but I couldn’t let her go. I wouldn’t.

I miss everything about her. Her smiles, her eyes, her sweet mouth, her soft body. I miss how she tastes, her voice, the way she moans and writh for me.

Fuck! I miss Amanda, and it seems life has no meaning for me. She is life itself, and I want to live and love her every day.

I can’t keep up living with this loneliness. I can’t keep wishing and want her when she is frustratingly out of reach. Messing up was my biggest mistake, something I wished I had taken back or had the ability to correct.

So I made up my mind. I was going to see her, no matter what. I’d given her enough space.

The hardest part was getting up the guts to go to her house. I knew her mom probably hated me. I mean, why wouldn’t she? Everything that happened between Alexander and her, and then me and Amanda… it was a lot. But I had to try.

When I got to their house, my heart was pounding so hard. Fuck, Xavier, you are an adult. I stood there for a second, staring at the door, trying to think of what to say.

But before I could knock, the door opened, and there she was, Amanda’s mom, looking straight at me like she already knew why I was there.

“What do you want, Xavier?” she asked coldly.

“I need to see Amanda,” I said, not missing the look of pure hatred and disgust she has on her face for me. I swallowed down the bile rising from my throat. I choose to ignore the ‘ if looks can kills attitude as I had only came here for one person and that’s Amanda.

Her expression didn’t change. If anything, she looked even more annoyed. “Why?” she asked. “So you can hurt her again?”

“No,” I said quickly, shaking my head. “I just… I need to talk to her. Please. I need to explain…”

“She doesn’t want to see you,” she said, cutting me off.

I opened my mouth to argue, to beg, but she held up her hand, stopping me.

“Look,” she said, softening just a little. “I know you care about her. I get that. But Amanda’s been through enough. She doesn’t need more drama, Xavier. And she’s freaking 19, you are 35. How the hell is that supposed to freaking work? And you were freaking family, what were you thinking?”

“I know,” I said. “I know I messed up, but I love her. I love her more than anything, and I need to tell her that. ”

She sighed, crossing her arms over her chest. “Love isn’t always enough, you know,”

“I know,” I said. “But I need to try. Please.”

She stared at me for a long moment, her eyes searching mine like she was trying to figure out if I was serious. Finally, she sighed again, this time sounding tired.

“She’s gone,” she said quietly. “She went to the airport about an hour ago. She’s moving to LA.”

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My stomach dropped. “What?”

“She’ll be staying with her father,” she continued. “She’s going to finish her studies there.”

I just stood there, stunned. Amanda never told me she was leaving. She didn’t even text or call. Nothing. Why would she? She probably hated me more than I thought.

Why has she decided to leave without giving me the opportunity to fix things, to make thing right between us. I’m ready, always ready to do that. Does everything that happened between us, the sweet memories, not mean

anything to her. Those memories should tug her heartstrings.

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“She didn’t tell me,” I muttered, more to myself than to her mom.

“She didn’t tell anyone,” her mom said. “She just… left. She needed a fresh start.”

I nodded slowly, my chest tightening. Of course, she needed a fresh start. After everything that happened, who wouldn’t? But the thought of her being so far away, of not being able to see her or talk to her… it hurt more than I expected.

I turned to leave, feeling defeated, when her mom called out to me.

“Xavier.”

I stopped and turned back to face her.

“For what it’s worth,” she said, her voice softer now, “I don’t blame you. For any of it.”

I blinked, not sure if I heard her right. “You… don’t?”

She shook her head. “What Alexander did… that’s on him. And as much as I hate to.admit it, Amanda loves you. And I know you love her too.”

“I do,” I said.

She nodded. “Then don’t give up on her. If you really love her, don’t let her go.”

Those words were all I needed. I thanked her quickly and bolted back to my car. I drove straight to the airport.

I knew she might have already left, but I had to try. I couldn’t just sit around and do nothing while the girl I loved was about to move far away.

The airport was chaotic, people were everywhere. I was frantically scanning the crowd, hoping to catch a glimpse of her. My heart was beating loudly in my chest as my eyes scanned everywhere like an eagle.

But she wasn’t there.

I checked every corner of the terminal, ignoring the strange looks people gave me. My heart was pounding, and I was frustrated. Where was she?

I stood in the middle of the airport, running a hand through my hair, trying to figure out what to do next. I felt like an idiot. How could I be so stupid to think I’d just magically find her here?

“Xavier?”

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