Rebirth of the Broken Luna A Second Chance at Luna's Heart novel Chapter 195

Chapter 195

ZADE

I sat behind my desk, staring at the same contract I’d been pretending to read for the past hour, my eyes tearing up from the strain

that I kept on it.

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The words started to blur together on the page, making it look unintelligible and muddy on the page as my mind kept on replaying events from earlier on auto repeat, the memory of Lyn’s lips against mine burning through my consciousness like a brand, pressed to my

skin that I couldn’t escape.

What had I been thinking? Honestly for the past week, I have been doing things unimaginable, breaking laws up and down and for what? I had also committed a grave offense as well. I had kissed him without warning, without permission from him, without taking in

consideration the consequences that were bound to happen for my actions.

And then, like the coward I apparently was, I’d fled the moment things got complicated and I was too ashamed to talk to him.

I tried to focus on the paperwork in front of me, very desperate to lose myself in the boring details of pack business, things that

should be more important than thinking dirty things about a man whose heart I had been playing with,

Territory disputes, resource allocation, trade agreements – anything to distract me from the confusion and self-loathing that had been

eating at me since I’d left Lyn’s hospital room.

The truth was, I knew exactly what I’d been thinking when I kissed him and I would never confess that even if I was going to be put

in trial for it.

I’d been thinking about how relieved I was that he was safe and was going to make a full recovery from the magical backlash he

suffered, I had been thinking about how terrified I’d been when I thought I might lose him, how desperately I wanted to hold him and

never let anything hurt him again.

But those weren’t the kind of thoughts an Alpha was supposed to have about another man.

They weren’t the kind of feelings that fit with the image I’d spent years perfecting, the expectations my pack had for their leader.

You’re such a hypocrite, my wolf’s voice cut through my mental spiral, dripping with disgust.

Stop hiding behind Lumina like she’s some kind of shield against what you really want.

I gripped the edge of my desk, my knuckles going white as I tried to shut out his voice, but it was impossible when he lived rent free

up there.

‘I’m not hiding behind anything, I muttered under my breath.

Really? Because from where I’m sitting, it looks like you’re using an unavailable woman as an excuse to avoid dealing with the fact that you

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‘I don’t want- I started to protest, but my wolf cut me off with a mental snarl.

Don’t lie to me. We share the same consciousness, remember? I know exactly how many times you’ve fantasized about Lyn underneath you, begging for your touch. I know how many nights you’ve imagined knotting him, breeding him till he gets pregnant with our pup, hearing him

scream our name while we claim him, marking him.

The graphic images my wolf projected made heat flood through my body, and I felt my control slipping as arousal mixed with horror and disgust coursed through me at the same time leaving me overstimulated and the urge to throw up at once.

“Shut up, I growled, my voice echoing in the empty office.

You want to hear him beg, want to chase him until he surrenders to us completely, you want to give him the kind of pleasure that leaves him mindless and desperate for more. The kind that makes him never look at any other man again. Back then, Xenois saw your mate and then, for a brief moment, Lyn was flustered a man like him could fight for him even if it was a case of mistaken identity. That’s the kind of mate Lyn deserves, not you. A weakling, a pathetic fool who can’t even say the truth to himself.

“I said shut up!” I roared, my fury and frustration reaching a breaking point.

I grabbed the nearest object – an expensive crystal paperweight that had been a gift from a neighboring pack – and threw it at the window with all the strength I possessed. The glass shattered immediately in a shower of glittering fragments, sending shards tumbling to

the ground three stories below.

The sudden silence that followed was deafening, broken only by my ragged breathing as I stared at the destruction I’d caused.

If Xenois hadn’t walked in when he did, my wolf continued mercilessly, you would have been buried balls deep in Lyn within minutes, hell you wouldn’t even have prepped him, you would have force your way deep into that tight channel and never pull out, even if he begged and cried that it hurt because you loved seeing him in pain, you hurting him sends a thrill up your chest, doesn’t it? You fucking masochist. He’s a vanilla person, who loves being taken gently, enjoys love making, passionate promises pressed into his skin, but not you. You would have let him scream loud enough for the entire hospital to hear that he was being claimed.

The truth of those words hit me like a physical blow. If we hadn’t been interrupted, I would have taken Lyn right there in his hospital bed, consequences be damned. The need I felt for him was that overwhelming, that consuming.

‘I’ve chosen Lynn,” I said desperately, clinging to the decision I’d made years ago when I found out that the Moon Goddess had cursed

me with a mate like him.

‘She’s suitable, appropriate. She’s the kind of mate people expect to see standing beside me in public.”

The memory of Xenois’s face when he’d realized what he was seeing flashed through my mind. The shock, the confusion, the barely concealed disgust as he’d processed the scene in front of him. That was how everyone would react if they knew the truth about what I

wanted.

You think Xenois was disgusted by you? my wolf asked with bitter amusement. He was confused because he thought he was walking in on

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his mate being assaulted. Once he realized his mistake, he seemed perfectly fine with the situation.

I shook my head, refusing to accept that interpretation. “He looked at me like I was some kind of pervert.”

He looked at you like someone who had just made an embarrassing mistake. The only person disgusted by what happened was you.

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“Because it is disgusting!” I snapped. “I shouldn’t be feeling these things, shouldn’t be wanting-”

Our mate? my wolf finished coldly. You shouldn’t be wanting our actual mate instead of the woman you’ve convinced yourself is more socially

acceptable?

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