The True Alpha of Lupine (Seraphina and Ronan) novel Chapter 152

Chapter 152 The Real Seraphina

SERAPHINA

Over the ten days, I asked myself countless times why I kissed Ronan back. How could I have crossed that line, dropped that shield and let myself slip into his possessive chains enough to lose my mind in those moments and follow his lips. I blamed my virginity that ached so badly that I acted without thinking, blamed my wolf for being lured in by his wolf in the moment of heat, blamed myself for losing self control thanks to his charm. But right now when I was pulled in his lap and heard him…talk about me kissing him that day…I realized something horrifying than I could ever have imagined.

That I kissed Ronan not of my wolf but because…….my heart…wanted…

Scared of my own realization and too frightened to even admit it, I found my eyes locked onto the intensity in his. I pulled away from his lap. I slid back as if he burnt me.

What did I just realize? It was impossible! There was no way…….

My emotions choked me as I stood up with shaking thoughts. I should not have run away that night when we kissed. I should have stopped him right there and then but now–now it had gotten to the point where I was about to weaken myself when I already had a lot to lose. My name, my title, my existence. Everything was on the line and now my heart too.

But why… why did a part of me go so insane that I blurted out, “Everyone who loves me dies. Everyone I love dies.”

A dead silence fell between us for several seconds as he stared at me blankly. “Absurd.”

I knew he wouldn’t believe me. No one ever did. “I thought it was absurd too- until the dead bodies of everyone I loved started lying before my eyes one by one. And do you know what’s funny?” I met his unchanging expression. “I saw glimpses of all their deaths.” His eyes finally shifted, the first sign of change as I revealed the truth.

I thought I would carry this secret to my grave. A grave I planned to enter alone, because I had always intended to live and die alone. No attachments. No more innocent people dying because of me. That was the way I had planned to exist. No love and no search for a soulmate like other girls–until Ronan entered my life like a storm. A storm that awakened forbidden feelings I had sworn never to feel. No matter how much I tried to avoid him, no matter how many I

faults I found in him, he always became the one my eyes searched for in secret.

Chapter 152 The Real Seraphina

But that only meant I was preparing myself for another nightmare. Because what had happened to the others might not have stopped.

That’s why I could never let myself cross that line with Ronan. The moment I did that….I would lose him. And it might mean the end of my own life too.

“Seraphina,” Ronan murmured as his hand touched my cheek.

I gasped softly under my breath, startled to find him standing right in front of me. I had been so lost in my nightmare that I hadn’t even noticed him moving closer. And then, suddenly, he pressed his lips gently to mine and whispered against them, “Did I die?”

My heart skipped a beat at his sudden action.

He looked deeper into my eyes, “Did you see a glimpse of my death?” he murmured.

I stood frozen beneath his kiss, my eyes locked on his.

“No, right?” he pressed softly. “I will not die, Seraphina. And even if one day I do, I’ll die in your arms. As your man.”

My heart clenched so painfully it felt like it might stop. Hearing him talk about his death so casually made me feel like I was the one dying.

I pulled away from his kiss and stepped back. Even after I told him about the curse following me since childhood, he still tried to hold me. He was the kind of man who didn’t even care about his own life for me. But what he didn’t understand was that if something happened to him… there would be no Seraphina left.

Just like he had said the other day.

I fought the wetness threatening my eyes and forced my heart to turn to stone.

No. I couldn’t let this happen. His madness and my weakness–the weakness of being unable to stop my heart from choosing him–would ruin us both. And now that we had come this far, neither of us needed to die.

It was enough if it was just me.

I had to stop him before it

whole. Before I lost him.

was too late. Before his obsession consumed me

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Chapter 152 The Real Seraphina

“I did not get glimpse because i get it for only those i have feelings for,”

His eyes turned cold, “What do you mean by that? We kissed. You kissed me…”

“That kiss…” my chest rose and fell as I continued to stare into his eyes, “it was a mistake.” I forced my words out.

Dead silence fell between us before his expression darkened, “A mistake?”

My throat felt choked at his question. I replied a moment later, “No.”

The light in his eyes dimmed, “You are lying right? I know you feel the same for me.”

For some reason my heart ached at his words. Why did I feel his emotions so clearly? It hurt my wolf so badly that I found my voice choking in my throat. “Yes,” I met his dark eyes without blinking and did not my voice tremble. “So, stop following me, Alpha Ronan. Stop these crazy acts. You and I are different in every way imaginable. I have my dreams that you already might have achieved in this life. This is the difference between being born as a man and woman. You want love but I don’t have such an emotion to return to you,” I took a step back and murmured, “Because I love only myself. No one else,” I declared, taking another step back, our eyes locked as if the world around us had vanished.

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