Now and Forever novel Chapter 45

Jessica.. Jessica.. Jessica..

Is he having an affair with with her? Is that why he got so mad? That I picked up the phone instead of him-

"Amelia!" Bella shouted and snapped her fingers in my face.

"Wha- Huh?"

"Are you still thinking about-"

"What? Of course not." I looked away and tucked my hair behind my ear- a habit I do when I'm lying and Bella knew this as well.

"You're lying." She stated.

"No I'm not-"

"Don't bother.." She waved me off and fell back on her bed.

"It's that obvious?" I asked after a few seconds of silence as I played with my fingers.

"Yea, it kinda is." She kissed her teeth and sat back up.

"I just can't stop- I mean, is he in a relationship with her-"

"Nu-uh! Stop right there!"

"Bella-"

"No, Amelia. Now, why don't you just ask him?"

"Are you crazy?! He was so mad when she called he didn't speak at all until we got here- even then he just went straight to his study and hasn't been out since! That was three hours ago!"

"Okay. I see your point.."

"Yeah well I better go to bed." I said and stood up after a huge yawn had escaped my mouth.

"Night night- oh and don't forget, you have a doctor's appointment tomorrow."

"I won't, goodnight." I gave her a quick kiss on the cheek and got out of the room.

You know what? let me check on Alexander real quick...

"Alexander?" I called after softly knocking on the door and entering his study.

As I had expected, he was working. You heard that right. He was working. On a Friday night- not to mention it was the day we came back home. Isn't he tired? I mean- he's the one that was driving.

"Hmm?" He hummed in response but didn't bother looking up from his laptop.

"Isn't it.. isn't a little late for you to be working-"

"Amelia-"

"I mean, you did drive-"

"Amelia-"

"And you should probably get some rest-"

"You're not my wife so stop acting like it god damnit!" He suddenly yelled and looked up at me- a flash of regret crossing over his eyes but didn't bother acting on it, instead, he looked back down at his laptop and continued typing, ignoring my presence all together.5

I- you know what? Never mind.

I turned around and walked out of the room without saying another word.

I should have known better than to- no. I didn't do anything wrong. I shouldn't be beating myself up for getting yelled at- I mean, come on Amelia! You're better than that! He's the one that should be beating himself up- he shouldn't have yelled at me in the first place...

Whoever this Jessica person is -whether she makes him angry or not- has been on his mind for hours. Who is she?

I'm not even go there right now, I'm honestly too tired to.

If he doesn't think or see me as his wife, what's the point of sleeping in the same bedroom? In the same bed? what's the point of sharing the same bathroom?

Am I overexaggerating? Maybe. Should I sleep in a different bed every time Alexander does something like this? No. Yes he was wrong for what he did but being a coward doesn't make me feel all that better either.

I pulled back the covers and climbed into bed, the coolness of the sheets immediately melting away the tenseness of my body. My mind went blank and sleep overclouded all my senses as soon as my head hit the pillow.

***

As expected, when I woke up there was no sign of Alexander anywhere in the room. Today was Saturday so there was no work but I wouldn't be surprised if he did go anyway.

I had a doctor's appointment scheduled for today at noon and it was currently 8 am. Might as well get some breakfast..

"You guys are already up?" I yawned and sat down next to Bella who was reading a newspaper? since when does she read newspapers?

"I just came down now and found him.. well.. doing whatever he's doing- what are you doing?" she put the newspaper down and put her intertwined fingers under chin.

"I'm making pancakes." Tony replied in a 'duh' tone and cracked- or at least tried to crack an egg on the edge of the bowl.

"That's the fifth egg you've tried to crack-"

"Making pancakes isn't easy!" He burst out like he was on the verge of tears which made Bella and I laugh. "Yeah it is, why don't you sit down and let me make them?" I stood up and took the egg he was about to crack out of his hand. "Sure." He sighed and took my seat next to Bella.

"Listen Amelia, we have something to tell you." Bella suddenly said in a serious tone. Serious Bella= I'm not gonna like this.

"What?" They looked at each other first before turning to me.

"Did you guys have se-" I whispered before I was so rudely cut off by Bella screaming 'no' like a hundred times.

"What?! Of course not! NO-"

"Okay I get it! what is it that you want to tell me?"

"I just want you to know that I still love you-"

"We're moving out- ow!" Tony yelped and rubbed the spot Bella had punched him on.

"I told you we weren't supposed to be blunt with-"

"But you were taking so long to tell her!"

"It's called being sensitive you doof-"

"Okay enough!" They both stopped bickering and looked at me like I was going to break at any second. To be honest; I wanted to. I wanted to fall down to my knees and cry my guts out. I was happy for them, I really was, but I wasn't happy about the fact that I'm going to be alone. Who am I going to talk to when Alexander and I get into a fight over something stupid -which is pretty often if you haven't noticed- but who am I to deny my bestfriend to live her life however she wants to? I can't just ask her to stay for my own selfish reasons. It's unfair.

And so I did what I should do as her bestfriend. I smiled.

"That's amazing you guys!"

"Y.. you're happy we're moving out?" Bella asked and looked at me like I had run mad or something.

"I'm happy for you."

"Wait, really?"

"yeah! why are you guys so surprised- don't answer that..." I added on when they both threw me a well known look.

"Let's have breakfast now, shall we?" I smiled and cracked the egg perfectly into the bowl which made Tony scoff and Bella and I laugh.

"Oh by the way, can I come with you guys to the hospital?" Tony asked as he scrolled through the channels on TV.

We had all decided to watch a movie or two after breakfast because there really wasn't anything to do.

"Sure." Bella answered.

"'Sure'? that's all you have to say? 'sure'?"

"Well what do you want me to say?"

"I want you to say-"

"No."

"Wha- no? You didn't even hear-"

"Okay! You guys bicker like an old married couple." I mumbled but they heard me and both looked at me like I'd offended them in the worst way possible.

"We're not-"

"We do not-"

"Shut up I was talking!"

I- never mind..

***

"Okay.. everything seems pretty okay." Delilah said as she moved the wand around my stomach. "Would you like a printed sonogram?" She asked an handed me tissue to wipe the gel off.

"Yes please-"

"We need to talk." Oh god.

"I- I'm gonna go-"

"No. You stay and finish up here," I said and looked up at her, "whatever he wants to say can wait." I looked over at him and glared.

She looked at me, then him the me again. "I'm so sorry Amelia." She looked at me apologetically and left the room in under three seconds.

"What do you want to talk about?" I folded the tissue in half and wiped it across my gel clad stomach.

"Why didn't you tell me you had a doctor's appointment?" He didn't yell but man did he sound mad..

"I didn't think you'd want to come." I said nonchalantly and sat up.

"But you thought Tony would like to come?!" And there it is. The yelling. Music to my ears..

"No actually, Tony asked if he could come this morning-"

"You could have asked me-"

"And when would I have asked you?"

"Yesterday-"

"Oh I'm sorry, before or after you yelled at me- oh oh I know! This morning? Oh wait, you were nowhere to be found." I know I promised myself I'd be the bigger person but I'm not going to let him yell at me all he wants for no freaking reason.

"I-"

"I wasn't going to get yelled at -again- for asking if you would like to come for a doctor's appointment for a child you didn't even want from the beginning."

He stayed quiet, probably contemplating on what and what not to say.

"Is everything okay?" Delilah asked popped her head through the door.

"Yes, everything's okay, could you please come and print the sonograms?"

"Sure."

"Thank you."

**four hours later**

"Baby's gender?"

"Next month."

"Baby shower?"

"I will not be having a baby shower Bella, we've talked about this-"

"No, you talked and I listened. That's not a conversation."

"I'm still not having a baby shower-"

"Shhh.. I don't want to hear it." She shushed me and went back to painting her nails.

"So..." She trailed off. "So?" I asked when I was getting impatient, "what happened last night?"

"What do you mean?" I know exactly what she means.