One Sided Love novel Chapter 20

ALEX 

I feel like shit... what did I do.... I should stop that moment when I saw her yelled in pain but I was lost in my lust n in her sweet tightness .... n then I full filled my need n totally ignore hers ... I feel ashamed she was fucking pregnant ... I can also hurt her ...n when I saw her body covered in marks because of my rough fucking I just want to kill myself ...she looks so devastated, scared n numb ...I enter in my office n made myself a drink..n lost in my work so that I can work n try to forget what I did.

It was almost 8:00 when there was a knock in the door I looked n saw it was kate ... she has changed to some brown dress n looking so fragile...

She said in a small voice without looking in my eyes ' Dinner is ready do you want to eat here or in the dinning room'

I was quite for a moment looking her ... n checking her if she is ok ... then I 

I replied ' im coming '

She left quietly .....when I reached Emma was sitting in her rocking chair and Kate was sitting far away from my side... I try to avoid looking at her but all I can saw how quite she is now, never lifting her head, looking so sad and weak...slowly eating her food , which was still fulled... why she is not eating properly .. she should be more hungery she doesnot eat properly during breakfast, lunch n now dinner.... may be it is because of me ,,, i thought in guilt.

After dinner kate put plates in the dishwasher n take Emma for a bath and then to bed.

All this time i was thinking how to apologized to kate ... because looking at her so broken was killing me ... i need to clear this bad air..

I went to her room and saw her in sleeveless  night gown and she was talking to some one 

She said " sir I know .. but i have to resign ... n dont worry about the project it is already done and send to your mail I was working on it today... Im so grateful you want me back but i really need a break from work ... now im married n have a 2 year n unborn kid to take care ... so plz understand.... sure sure sir when Im looking for job again NYPH will be my first choice... ok goodnight'

I feel more guilty she was really finishing her project and have left her job because of me... when she turned n looked me .. she flinched 

Kate

When Alex left me in room broken... i went to washroom to clean my self ... when i looked at myself at mirror my arms n back and neck was covered in marks... n some where a little painful... looking at those i remember all that and I cried heavely....