One Sided Love novel Chapter 20

ALEX 

I feel like shit... what did I do.... I should stop that moment when I saw her yelled in pain but I was lost in my lust n in her sweet tightness .... n then I full filled my need n totally ignore hers ... I feel ashamed she was fucking pregnant ... I can also hurt her ...n when I saw her body covered in marks because of my rough fucking I just want to kill myself ...she looks so devastated, scared n numb ...I enter in my office n made myself a drink..n lost in my work so that I can work n try to forget what I did.

It was almost 8:00 when there was a knock in the door I looked n saw it was kate ... she has changed to some brown dress n looking so fragile...

She said in a small voice without looking in my eyes ' Dinner is ready do you want to eat here or in the dinning room'

I was quite for a moment looking her ... n checking her if she is ok ... then I 

I replied ' im coming '

She left quietly .....when I reached Emma was sitting in her rocking chair and Kate was sitting far away from my side... I try to avoid looking at her but all I can saw how quite she is now, never lifting her head, looking so sad and weak...slowly eating her food , which was still fulled... why she is not eating properly .. she should be more hungery she doesnot eat properly during breakfast, lunch n now dinner.... may be it is because of me ,,, i thought in guilt.

After dinner kate put plates in the dishwasher n take Emma for a bath and then to bed.

All this time i was thinking how to apologized to kate ... because looking at her so broken was killing me ... i need to clear this bad air..

I went to her room and saw her in sleeveless  night gown and she was talking to some one 

She said " sir I know .. but i have to resign ... n dont worry about the project it is already done and send to your mail I was working on it today... Im so grateful you want me back but i really need a break from work ... now im married n have a 2 year n unborn kid to take care ... so plz understand.... sure sure sir when Im looking for job again NYPH will be my first choice... ok goodnight'

I feel more guilty she was really finishing her project and have left her job because of me... when she turned n looked me .. she flinched 

Kate

When Alex left me in room broken... i went to washroom to clean my self ... when i looked at myself at mirror my arms n back and neck was covered in marks... n some where a little painful... looking at those i remember all that and I cried heavely....

She looked with me teary eyes ' I didn't know that you were attractive towards me.... I won't lie yes I was scared... you make me feel like some cheap wh##r ... you... ne.. never kissed me.... but now you apologized I can forgive you... but plz don't hate me... I can't tolerate this'

I picked her face with both hands n said ' im a jerk ...a heartless bastard... but I won't do this again... let me rectify this'

I slowly put my lip to her n kissed her ... I stop for a moment to look if she is willing or not ..... but she just closed her eyes like she was saving this moment in her memory.... I kissed her more passionately n gracing her body with my hand ... I was so lost in a moment that I know in any minute I will undress her n lost myself in her.... I fondel her breasts. which are bigger than before 

I asked ' Are you sure kate... you can say stop if you dont want it'

She smiled ' I want it...'

I didn't wait for any moment again ... I passionately kissed her every body part ... n slowly n gently enter her...n kissed her neck... kate was very responsive n she was softly moaning which was making me lose control a little but I make,sure she is satisfied first... for a moment my hand touched her stomach n I stop... it look so real... kate opened her eyes n looked little hurt ... but I try to focus on a moment.... I fasten my speed n finally come....we both were sweating n I looked kate ... she has the most beautiful blush n lightly grace her face then I fell in sleep.