One Sided Love novel Chapter 21

Kate

I felt my self to be lying in some hard surface when I opened my eyes I saw my head,was pressed to Alex chest n suddenly sit in the bed... my moment wake Alex n he looked confused but I was scared that he will regret this again n blame me for it... he might have saw my expression because he shake his head 

Said ' kate are you ok! '

I said ' yeah im .. are you'

He smiled a little ' im perfectly fine ... n last night seems to make me very much ok'

I thought he doesn't regret last night thats why he is in happy mood

He suddenly said ' kate ... I never regret last night.... thats why you r so tense'

Shit I really said that aloud

I replied ' hmm... I don't know .... I just... I get scared that you will think I seduced you '

Alex laughed ' pretty girl believe me if you ever seduced me I will always enjoy that but relax its me who seduced you not you'

I was shocked by Alex admission 

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He looked shocked ' you r having panic attacks for more than 20 years n you are telling me now.... no one .. not even emily never told me you're having attacks'

I replied ' no one knows about that ... I used to have them when im..

He knowingly said ' when you're extremely tense or something triggered you...... fuck my words triggered something .... if you r not comfortable its ok I understand'

I was thinking about my baby sure Alex cant love him or her but he will be not like my father .... I have to stay because of emma ... n for my baby honor ... so I also make things clear with him too

I replied ' Alex don't put this on you... I never had this more than 2 years its last fir few seconds ... but I also want to say something... you have to promise me that if I ever agreed to all you have said then promise me you will never disrespect n humiliate our child publicly n personaly n don't let any one do that to and If I ever felt this then I will leave everything'

He have an understanding look that what im talking about ' I promise you I will never do this to you n baby'