SAGE novel Chapter 46

Sage Miller

It was Monday again and I was actually energetic yet I still managed to be moody and sarcastic.

The encounter with Alora left me bitter and angry.

I never knew I could be energetic, lazy, and moody at the same time but do I you know.

It's the comedy classic called my life. The Sage Miller Show. It has a nice ring to it.

It would've been fun if it didn't suck the life out of me but hey it wouldn't be my fucking life if it didn't.

Way to be fucking pessimistic in the morning, Sage. I am helping my mood ain't I?

"How's you in this fine morning?" Connor asked as we walked down the hallway.

Kate was following behind like she was told. I looked over my shoulder a few times and she really was trailing behind me.

He hasn't been around much the house the past weekend. He's been meeting someone a whole lot and he wouldn't fucking tell me who.

I had actually put effort on what i was wearing today. Actually no, I didn't.

I opted for my black sneakers, black pants and a white long sleeve.

"Just peachy." I grimace.

"You and Sebastian okay?" He asked and I clicked my tongue.

"You ask to many fucking question." I couldn't help but snap a bit.

I didn't wanna talk about him or even hear his name. I can't even look at him right now.

"Well I'm just concerned." We were now at my locker. His locker was just down a bit than mine so automatically we stopped at mine.

"Well me and Sebastian I jolly." I sarcastically said and Connor's mouth dropped.

"Sarcasm is becoming your second language this morning." He commented just as I got my locker opened.

He didn't mean it as an insult but I heard one so normally I throw one back.

"Yeah well idiocy is your personality." I sneered towards him.

I actually don't mean to snap bit I am who I am.

"Fuck you Sage. You're being an asshole right now and I don't have to deal with you." He said and turned to Kate who was behind me in her own locker.

He opened his mouth then closed it. He thought about what he wanted to say very carefully.

"I was gonna say maybe you'll have luck taming him but then I remembered who you are. So I'll say good luck with him. You're gonna need it." He said directed the words towards Kate.

Kate didn't say anything and just watched him leave and so did it.

Once he was out of view I slammed my locker shut and rammed my fist to it.

"Fuck!" I yelled slamming it harder this time and made a whole lot people jump.

I can never get a damn rest can I?

Kate was still standing besides me. When I turned around everyone was looking at me.

Kate suddenly stepped forward and shouted at everyone.

"What the fuck are you all looking at?" Everyone averted their eyes and looked everywhere.

"That's right, fuck off." She added and turned around in a sassy way then closed her locker.

I figured it was best to just go to class at this point.

I extended my hand for Kate to take and she did.

I then took her pink bag with the other hand.

The day went on forever and it was just lunch and yet I felt so exhausted.

I sat outside on the bleachers since Kate had practice during lunch and I didn't know where any of my friends where.

I'd be lying if I said I've seen any of them today. Well I did see Connor this morning but he too went mia on me.

This could be the worst Monday's of all time and that's saying something considering that I hate Monday's.

Its the whole waking up thing and going to school that's a turn off about Monday's. I don't know about anyone but that's the hardest day of the week.

Bored out of my goddamn mind, I shift on the bleachers and lie down facing up.

I use one hand to block the sun rays out of my eyes and the other hand I use it as a pillow.

Its nice since the sun isn't too hot and fall has already started.

I lie there and listen to the foot steps people are making as they walk up and down the bleachers.

Out of the blue a shadow covers my whole body. I thought it was Kate but I was surprised when I opened my eyes and Sebastian and Connor were standing in front of me liking down on me.

Confused and irritated to see both of them after they ghosted me, I sat upright fast.

I frowned at them and I guess I half expected them to sit down next to me and we could pretend nothing ever happened. But I don't think I'll ever forget what Sebastian did.

I lifted my head and looked at them. Sebastian's face was unreadable like it always is. Connor looked pissed.

"What do you want?" I was the first to speak.

I knew they weren't here to reconcile so why make small talk.

"I quit." Sebastian growled.

I didn't really understand what he meant until he threw the co-captain wrist band next to me.

My jaw dropped and his was clenching.

"If this is what you want so much you can have. I rather have a friend than some stupid tittle I don't even give two shits about." He added looking like he was about to rip someone's throat.

I still couldn't believe what he was doing. I didn't even know what to feel

"For the record I quit the team too." He told me and as if my jaw couldn't drop any lower, it did. "I hope it was worth it."

I couldn't believe he would just quit like that. I looked at the wrist bavmnd next to me and felt sick.

When I looked up Sebastian was gone and only Connor was standing in front of me looking like he was disgusted by me.

"I hope you're damn happy." He said and he too left.

I just watched as he ran to catch up with Sebastian and I felt like throwing up.

I was disgusted with myself too. Sebastian quited football. He actually did.

In no time school was let out and I haven't seen both Connor and Sebastian since Lunch.

I don't blame them. I wouldn't even wanna see myself too. Even after all this time I felt sick to the stomach.

After changing into my gear I marched down to the pitch and for a second I had almost forgotten that Sebastian quited football until I looked besides me and realised I was walking alone.

When I stepped into the field, it felt different. Like I was on limbo.

I marched towards my teammates and coach was briefing then.

"You're late." Coach yelled as soon as I joined them.

"Sorry coach." I said I looked down.

I zoned out immediately and thought how horrible I really am.

Sebastian has been my best friend since first grade. Ten years of friendship watsed because I was selfish and wanted a a stupid tittle I don't even need.

"Miller." I snapped out when I heard coach yelling at me.

"Yes Coach." I lifted my eyes to him and caught a glimpse of the bleachers behind him.

It was empty. Connor wasn't there to watch me like he always is.

"Am I boring you?" He asked and again I zoned back in on him.

I realised that he was waiting for an answer and I don't remember what the question was.

"Huh?" I asked him.

He looked annoyed at me but right now I couldn't care.

"You know. Ten laps around the field." He suddenly announced but I had already made up my mind.

I'm not happy with this situation and I think I know how to fix it.

"I quit." The words slipped out of my mouth smooth.

Everyone looked shocked and as they should. They lost two best players in a span of one day.

I didn't wait for them to get over their shock.

I began walking towards the locker rooms.

"Miller get back here." Coach shouted and cussed but I kept walking away.

Out of the corner of my eye I saw Kate running towards me and I suddenly remembered that I'm here ride. S9 I waited until she reached me.

"What's going on? Where are you going?" She asked as soon reached me.

"I'm going, find a new ride." I told her and started walking away.

"Fine but where are you going? Practice just started."

"I quit football." I said over my shoulder and entered the locker rooms.

The drive to my house was absolute fucking torture. I couldn't stop beating myself over what happened today.

Sebastian really quited football. The whole thing. It was a bitter pill to swallow because I knew it was all because of me.

So I was shocked and surprised when I pulled up my driveway to see both Sebastian and Connor's cars on my driveway.

Since there was no space to park my car I parked next to the road.

I was actually glad they were both here so I can apologise to both of them.

I owe them that much.

I didn't knock because it's my house and I have the keys so that would be stupid.

The only noise I could hear was some kung fu movie coming from the t.v. bit it was expected, Sebastian doesn't do much talking and Connor doesn't bother him that much.

Connor was the first to see me. He sat upstraight startled by me.

"You're home." He announce and it was clear I had caught him off guard.

I wasn't suppose to be home for another two hours.

Sebastian chose to ignore the whole exchange but I saw how tense his body suddenly became.

"Umm yeah." I said and put my keys on the bowl.

I went ahead and sat on the singular sofa. Connor basically chose to ignore me after that.

I didn't if I should start with small talk then drop the bomb or maybe I should just say it. Or maybe I could start by apologising.

I didn't know what to do and which approach I should take. All I know is that one wrong word all this goes to hell and I'm afraid because I don't have a filter.

"I quited football." I blurted out.

Both of their bodies went rigid and they actually stopped moving. I could swear they stopped breathing all in all.

"What?" Connor said lifting his head.

Sebastian was still looking ahead but he slowly started to tilt his head to look at me.

"I did." I admitted.

"Why?" Sebastian spoke for the first time since I stepped in the house. "I mean you finally had what you wanted."

I looked down ashamed of myself. I realised that I had made a stupid tittle more important than my friends.

"When I walk to the field today I realised how all of it was meaningless without you." I admitted looking down. "What I mean is I don't want it if my friends aren't there."

My eyes drifted to Sebastian's hands. His hands were clenched tightly that his knuckles were turning white.

I gulped nervously. I didn't wanna loose my friends.

"All I'm trying to say is I'm really sorry for being an asshole all the time." I told both of them.

"You damn right on the asshole part." Connor commented.

"What makes your sorry different this time around?" Sebastian barked and finally met my gaze. His eyes were blazing with fire.

I gulped again.