Chapter 39
“Serge, why would they have
him in a room in the house?
Wouldn’t it make more sense
to take him to a cell?”
“My guess would be to keep him close to you. To use him
against you.” Serge responds.
That makes sense.
As I search through the hall, suddenly Julia stomps in my
direction.
“This is all your fault!” she
shouts at me.
“What?”
“Alexis is being punished because of you! He might be killed!” She starts crying but has visible anger.
“Colt will not be killed. I will raise hell if that happens!”
“You did this to him! Why couldn’t you just leave him alone?!”
She is not listening to me.
“I hate you and I swear if something happens to him, I will make you pay!”
“Enough Julia!” Serge shouts
from behind me. “You can’t
speak to her like this.”
Julia grinds her teeth. “I
don’t care who she is. I love
him. This is all her fault and
Alexis should not have to pay
for it.”
Love?
It bothers me but I look past
“Colt.”
She looks at me with
confusion.
“His name is Colt, not Alexis.
And I intend to do
everything in my power to
make sure that he is safe. I
will not let my father kill
him.”
She doesn’t say anything else
but just stares at me.
I turn around and continue
my search.
Love him? She loves him?
Well…so do I. I love this man
too.
As I turn a corner, I see the two guards standing in front of a door that leads to a
room just like Garret said.
I walk up to the guards and
they suddenly stand in my
way.
“I either pass or you are going to have to stop me.” I tilt my head. “What will
happen if they put their
hands on me, Serge?”
Serge suddenly growls at
them and they immediately
back away.
I do feel like a brat at this
moment. Using everything I have to my advantage.
“We have instructions not to
let anyone in.” The guards
say.
“Then don’t tell anyone. I am going in either way.”
I walk past them, ignoring them, and open the door.
The room is dark but I am
still able to see.
Colt lies on the bed with his
hands cuffed on the side of
the bedpost. For a werewolf,
this would be easy to get out
of but he does look hurt and
weak.
He looks up and when he
sees me, he immediately
tries to sit up but he can’t.
“Cass!”
I sit on the bed with him on
his side.
“Did someone tend to your
wounds?” I ask him.
He slowly nods.
Unlike Ezra, Colt’s face
wasn’t touched but he has
deep cuts on his b*dy that are already starting to heal. But because I am sure they
were made with silver
weapons, it will take a bit longer than usual. He doesn’t
seem to be hurting though
and I am glad about that. I
don’t want to see him
suffering.
“Let me explain.” he says.
“Don’t talk. You’ve said
enough.”
“No. I haven’t. I haven’t said
enough.”
He lifts himself up as best he
can, resting his back on the headboard.
“Let me start from the
beginning.” he says.
I quietly listen.
“In no way do I expect you to just forgive me because I lied to you. I lied to you many times when I could have just
told you the truth. But I was
scared and that made me act
like a fool.”
I don’t give him a reaction and just wait.
“After Skye did what she did,
I climbed up the ladder to get close to Warrick. That is all true. My need to kill him was all true. A few years later
when he finally trusted me
enough, he gave me an
order. To search for his
daughter. He was convinced that she…you—had survived and that you were being harbored by an enemy pack.
I started with the easiest
packs to infiltrate and of
course, I didn’t find
anything. When my father’s pack caught us…that was true as well. We got caught by them, I never had any
intention to infiltrate my father’s pack mostly because I was sure that Warrick’s daughter would never be there. I was obviously wrong but this all came by chance.
Even when we were in the
cells together, I didn’t know
you were his daughter until
you used your power on that
f**ker.”
“And that is when you
planned to take me to him.” I
interrupt.
“No! Listen, please.”
I take in a deep breath trying to put my anger aside.
“Giving you to Warrick
would have meant that he
would have had more power.
So no, that was never my intention. All this time, I was
searching for you so that I could use you against him. Cass I got as close as I could
to Warrick and I still had no
chance to end him. So this
was my plan. Falling for you
was not part of it but by the time I learned who you were, I already had my foot in. I was taken by you.”
“So you brought me to him to get close to him?”
“No. We got caught when we went to the city. I had no
idea that he would be there
because he rarely ever makes
rounds to the city. But once
we got caught, the urge to follow my orders through set in though I fought it with all I had. When we got caught, there was no other choice.
All I could do to protect us
was to act as if I had really brought you to him. I hated the idea because now, I
wanted to keep you from him. Now, I didn’t want him
to know that you existed. I wanted to protect you.”
“And the seducing me part?! Why are you leaving all that out?”
“I am not. Once we got here, he told me to get close to you. But I was already close though I didn’t tell him that. I was already in love with you and I know you were in
love with me. It doesn’t
matter how much you deny
I keep my face away from him trying not to react to his
words but he continues.
“I had to agree so I did, but that was it. My love for you is real, Cass, and that plan I had to use you against Warrick, was out of my head a long time ago. I don’t know what
you did but, all that hate is gone. I am still angry but it is not my fixation anymore.
You are. You are all I want.”
He pauses and I take a
moment to take it all in.
“I…I have to think.” I say as I
get up and head to the door.
“Cass!” He calls out to me.
I stop walking and wait to see what he has to say.
“I love you, Cass.”
With hesitation, I start
walking and leave the room
without giving him a
reaction.
There is no denying it, I love
him too. I fell for him hard. I
recognize that I am angry at this moment, and I know it will pass. I think I just need some ME time.
As I walk through the hall, I
stumble on Skye who has a bag that seems to be full of clothes. She has a split lip
and looks angry.
I can only assume that
Warrick threw her out of the
house.
“Leaving?” I ask.
She obviously wants to tell me off but she doesn’t. She
keeps her mouth shut and
walks past me.
I shrug my shoulders ignoring her too.
I walk downstairs and go to
one of the garden rooms at the back of the parlor where I have seen Poppy and Lotus gather before. It is a
sunroom with flowers all
over it. A calm and relaxing
area. I find an empty chair in
one of the corners and sit
soaking in the sun on my
skin.
Serge, I assume is
somewhere behind me. He
almost makes himself
invisible to me. It’s annoying
to have someone follow me
everywhere I go but at the
same time, it feels nice to not
feel so alone.
Suddenly I hear Serge give a
low growl. When I look back,
I see Ezra.
I roll my eyes. “What do you
want?”
“You.” He nonchalantly says.
“Ezra!”
“Fine. Just let me talk.”
I stay quiet and turn back to look out of the window glass.
“I realize what I did. I realize I f**ked it all up. But we still
have a connection. That’s
how I was able to find you
here. I followed it.”
“And?”
He sighs. “It means
something, Cass. We are
fated to each other.”
Looking straight outside, I
confess to him. “I am in love
with your brother.” after a few seconds of silence, I turn
to him. “I am not saying this to hurt you, Ezra. But you
need to understand where
my heart lies and it is not with you.”
“But I am your true mate. I
am the one you are meant to
be with.”
“That means shit to me, Ezra.
You hurt me and pushed me away. This is the result of that. Accept it. Move on.
Find someone you can truly
love and can love you in
return.”
“I can’t. I always wanted you.”
“You what?!”
“I always wanted you but my pride got in the way. I was ashamed that I wanted you. I was angry at myself and that is why I treated you the way I did. That is why I did the things I did.”
I feel like I am finally
hearing him speak the truth.
But… it’s too little too late. I
still feel nothing for him.
“I need you, Cass. Let me
make things right, please.” he
pleads.
“You don’t need me. You
only want me now because
you lost control of me. You can’t hurt me anymore.”
“No, Cass. That’s not it.
Please, just give me a
chance.”
“And your family? You are
betraying them, giving them
up to the enemy for what? A chance with me?”
“Yes. I am giving everything up for you.”
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