She Can't Be Your Mate novel Chapter 60

"It hurts Zane. It hurts so much." She sobbed on my shoulder. A tear escaped my eye and rolled down my cheek. I felt it too. Not because I was grieving over friends. But because I could feel her pain.

"I-I don't know what to do Sunshine. I don't know how I can make you feel better. I'm so sorry." More tears freely flowed down my face. I felt terrible.

"Just be here. Just be here with me."

~Devina's POV~

You know that feeling where your whole world just comes crashing down on you? That's what it felt like when my dad left us. That's what it felt like when Mr. Freddles was killed. And that's what it felt like when I found out my two closest friends were dead. That's not a feeling anyone should be feeling more than once in their life. But here I am. Feeling so empty and alone. I know I have Zane, for now. But nothing lasts forever. That's why I chose today to get up. I can't be like this forever. I have been staying in my own room and so has Zane. I know he's gotten as much sleep as me just from the tone of his voice and the dark circles under his once bright eyes. I bet I looked worse. My thoughts were confirmed when I went into the bathroom and looked in the mirror. My hair was a mess and looked like I work at McDonald's and always touch my hair. I cringed as I looked at my eyes. Their once blue shade was now hidden around a layer of red. Under them were bags. And they most definitely weren't designer.

Ha ha.

I stripped out of my clothes and quickly stepped into the hot shower. It's been almost two weeks since I first got the call from Everett. A few days later, the funeral for them was held. Obviously, their bodies weren't there but it was a very beautiful service. Everyone was there, both of their parents and the whole pack. I'm not entirely sure if their parents knew about the pack and everything but I guess that's not something I thought of asking them. Once I got out of the shower, I wrapped a towel around my body and walked back into my room.

"Devina? I made some pancakes for you." A tired voice spoke behind the door. My heart fluttered. I quickly pulled on some clothes and opened the door. Zane was sitting down on the opposite side of the hallway. When he saw me he quickly stood up and his green eyes widened.

"Thank you, Zane." I ran up to him, closing the space between us and flew my arms around his neck. "For everything. I'm so sorry. I'm a crappy girlfriend." He pulled away from me and shook his head.

"Baby don't ever say that. You aren't. You're the best girlfriend. I love-" My heart started thumping as I heard those words, waiting for him to finish them, I watched as his face turned red. "Spaghetti. I love spaghetti. Does that sound good for dinner? Spaghetti?" My heart dropped.

"Yeah. Yeah sure." I plastered on a fake smile and nodded. I tried my best not to get too upset about this, it was just a misunderstanding, right? "Now where are those pancakes...?" Zane grinned and took my hand, leading me to the kitchen.

"Here you go my lady." He spoke in a terrible British accent and gestured to the kitchen table.

"You're the best." I kissed his cheek and sat down at the table. He did the same and stared at me. "What?" I asked, after chewing all the food in my mouth. He smiled and hung his head.