She Can't Be Your Mate novel Chapter 75

"Why haven't you rejected me yet? I thought you were going to reject me."

"Reject you?" It wasn't ever even an idea. "No. You're mine. You're my mate. Not anyone else's. I'm not letting you go." A tear escaped her cheek but I stopped it from traveling any further with my rough thumb. I slowly started to lean in as she picked her head up. We were inches apart before she pulled back.

"I-I can't. Oliver's my boyfriend. I can't cheat on him." I clenched my jaw and looked at the sea. I was livid.

"You never officially broke up with me until today. You were dating him while we were still dating?" Devina flinched back and furrowed her perfect eyebrows.

"You cheated on me, Zane! You were with that witch for a year!" I closed my eyes.

"I know. I know. I'm sorry. I just need to get used to all this.

"I got into USC." She softly spoke after a few minutes of comfortable silence.

"Dylan told me. Congratulations." I grinned. "I'm proud of you."

"I also got adopted by Gwen. She's amazing she got me a car last Wednesday. She's not rich, you know, but she always finds money to spend on me in some way. She's a wonderful woman. I wish one day I'll be like her."

"You're amazing too. You're beautiful." I tucked a strand of blonde hair behind her ears and for once she didn't push me away.

"She got me a beta fish too." She laughed and leaned into my touch. "His names Tank." I grinned as she talked about her life. It sounded perfect.

"You- you look thin." I finally spoke. Her shoulders tensed as if the words froze her whole entire body. "You've been eating right? You're healthy?"

"I-" She paused, trying to find the right words to say. "I've been pretty busy lately. With school and colleges and everything like that. And with my job too. A lot of stress." She spoke, not entirely telling me she had been eating and not saying that she hasn't.

"Devina you have to eat." She looked away.

"I don't know what to do," He started with tears in his beautiful green eyes. "I don't know how to make it up to you. I don't know what to do anymore Sunshine." I bit my bottom lip, trying to hold back my tears.

"I don't know either," I whispered.

"Come back with me. Come back home. We'll figure all this out." I frowned and shook my head.

"This is my home now Zane. I have family here friends. I have Oliver." I said the last part quietly as if it would lessen the blow but Zane still flinched back with a hurt expression on his face.

"Y-Y want him?" He slowly asked. "You want to be with him." I looked away. I'll never want Oliver more than I want Zane, but what does it matter? "Tell me you want him not me and I'll leave. I'll reject you if you want. You'll never have to see me again." My heart raced, that's not what I wanted. I couldn't imagine another year or two or more without him. I wanted to scream no, I wanted to jump into his arms and finally unite our lips. But the only thing I could do was nod my head. "Goddamnit, Devina! Say it then! Fucking say it out loud!" He screamed, tears freely falling down both of our pained faces.

"I-" I took a deep breath and let it back out, not able to hold in the estranged sob. "I-" It's a funny thing. The human body. Your mind can control it, like it's just a suit. But sometimes your body controls itself. And that's exactly what my body did. It took control and ran to Zane, smashing our lips together. He deepened the kiss and held the back of my head, possibly just so he could put his hands somewhere but also maybe because he didn't want me to pull back. After a few seconds, Zane briefly froze then took the kiss even farther, letting his tongue explore my mouth.