Sinful Mates 1-3 novel Chapter 70

　　Tobias POV

　　Three months, three long months without her, without touching her milky skin, without smelling her intoxicating scent, three months of nothing but anger and darkness. Three months of sleeping in shitty motels while we travelled around looking for her, only to come up empty. No word from her, not even to tell us she was okay. Nothing but deafening silence through the bond. So silent it was chilling trying to pull anything from it.

　　Was this some sick punishment from her? Can she not feel us either? Feel our desperation and longing for her. My father went in the opposite direction to us, searching for his mate just like us. The despair I know he feels must be nearly killing him. We aren’t as hopeless yet, still having Theo by my side was enough to keep my beast and darkest thoughts at bay. This won’t last forever though, not without her. The nightmares haunting my sleep make me more on edge, because I have this feeling they aren’t mine. Yet Theo doesn’t sleep, and we feel nothing through the bond to know if they are Imogen’s or just my tormented mind making me suffer more. When I sleep, Theo still prowls the night searching for her. We don’t even know if we are going in the right direction, not that there are many directions left to run in.

　　Until we have her back, I will never stop searching. The only thing we have figured out is that she is carrying our child, well mine, but the biology doesn’t matter this child belongs to all of us, just like she belongs to both Theo and me. I understand why she ran. I never would have allowed her to go through with it. There is only one way this ends for her. I wouldn’t have cared if she hated me for it, at least she would have hated me and still been alive.

　　 Now nothing but fear plagues me. Were-babies don’t need as long as human babies to be created and born. So, it’s only a matter of time before this child will rip its way through her, killing her in the process. I just hope my mother had some back-up plan before she took off with our mate. My mother had never kept it hidden, how she wishes for a proper family, one with children. I know how she longed for grandchildren, yet with me and Theo it would never be a possibility. We thought she accepted that, then this happens and now we have to race against time to find her. Yet my father is racing to save his mate, he knows if something happens to Imogen I won’t hesitate, even if it kills Theo, I will kill her for letting her die. Mother must know this, and that’s why she must have gone with her. I just pray she is not too late in changing her. I know I am bringing my mate home, either dead or alive I will find her and then I will kill those that helped her with her suicide.

　　We had just pulled up at yet another crappy motel in the middle of nowhere. I looked at the ran down building and its neon sign. Theo was out of the car already walking to the small office and checking in. I opened my door, letting the cool crisp air run over my heated skin. Running my hands through my hair that was damp with sweat from yet another nightmare while I slept and Theo drove.

　　Theo came back out, holding a key on a chain. I looked up at him as he tossed it to me. We decided this time to bring the car. It was becoming too difficult for me to keep running, my beast was becoming stronger while I grew weaker. I never even put up a fight anymore trying to control emotions, I let that primal side take over at the slightest emotion. I know it will be something I will have to reign in when we get her back. I have spent nearly the entire three months in my wolf form. Theo said enough when I nearly killed some locals in the town a few days ago.

　　Like he could talk, I noticed the moment he stepped out of the office with the key in his hand that he had blood on the collar of his shirt. Even though he tried to hide it from me, I know hunger is slowly taking over him.

　　“I hope you didn’t kill this one” I muttered before standing and following Theo inside the shitty motel room. I flicked on the light and instantly regretted turning it on. The outdated furniture and its floral bedsheets were crawling with bugs, more specifically flies.

　　“Did something fucking die in here?” I asked the smell made me crinkle my nose in disgust.

　　This is the only motel or hotel in this town, you’re going to have manage” Theo snapped.

　　“I prefer to sleep in the car or outside,” I whinged.

　　Theo started ripping the linen off the bed, ignoring my comment. Dust flying everywhere, I could see the little dust particles floating in the air, making me swat at them, not wanting them to land on me. God knows how many dead skin cells were now flying through the air. I walked outside, not being able to handle the uncleanliness. Did they never clean around here? Theo emerged a few minutes later and walked towards the office with the filthy linen before walking to the boot and pulling out brand new linen and blankets from the trunk.

　　“When did you have time to get those?” I asked. I can’t even remember the last time I stepped into an actual store, only ever going into servos. We never had time.

　　“You forget I don’t need sleep. I have plenty time,” he said kissing the edge of my mouth on his way past. I felt my cock twitch painfully in my pants at the innocent gesture, something I haven’t felt since she left, or maybe I was just denying that part of me. Arousal hitting me as I stepped into the room and watched him make the bed. The smell gone, now the old blankets were out, and the only smell was Theo’s scent. Feeling my eyes on him, he looked up. His red eyes peering back at me. I missed his green eyes. It has been a while since I saw them. The longer we go without her, the more our darkest parts take over threatening to undo the control we spent years building, both too exhausted to fight our true selves giving ourselves over completely to the side we tried to conceal.

　　“Sleep Tobias. I will start searching the forest for any cabins and will keep heading north pull on the link when you’re wake, I will come back,” he said chucking the doona on the bed.

　　I watched him remove his shirt, changing it for a clean one. Walking towards me to leave and keep searching, doing the buttons up on his way towards me. When he brushed past me, I didn’t even realise what I had done till he stopped looking at me. My hand tightly around his wrist, preventing him from leaving.